grrr...

超羡慕的说
超遗憾的说
一直把要看林宇中life唱歌挂在嘴边，
昨晚他终于来古晋了
我却不能去看！
超讨厌的说！

新年的早晨
我家的神经人精神病发作
七早八早
在那边飙歌
拜托！
新年的第一天
就迫不及待让我耳朵受罪啦？！

说不会伤心是假的！
爱上微笑确是真的！
带着微笑进入梦境的我
醒来第一件事
就是听 Lara 的 《我不再怕》
很好听的说
歌词写得很不错的说

难免会失落
有些事
还是笑一笑就没有什么大不了的说~

面临惨状的我，
还是赶紧动身去做假期功课吧

终于
不再受罪了
一阵不悦耳的钢琴声又响起！
真是多灾多难的新年哟！

haiz....

NICE :D

nice today~
`sky` noe, `ground` noe,
i noe, u dunno
WHY??!!

muahahahax

too nice :D
i have a great form teacher~
=D
Love her to the MAX
i told her too many things i guess,
btw, somehow,

wish to be monitor agn..
^v^
nevermind,
juz let then elect,
if i lose from the election,
nvm~


Had a really nice game with leos and ex leo + cedric!
i dare to say...
alfred really noe how happy am i today!
muahahaha
WHY??!!
nenene bubu!
muahahahahahahahaha

haiz,
love the time to spend with u~
soooo nice n.n
1st time play snooker,
noob me and noob aaron...
hahahax hit the ball hit till very light or sometime juz even cnt hit the ball!
COOL game~
thx cikgu Dora for fetching em there and fetching me home!
Mark is so cute when playing bowling,
make us laugh so much!
alfred totally is lucky/GENG!!!!
ngai ti! really li hai!
Aaron,
sometime wash drain, sometime nice shot,
but he STRIKE!!!
noted, STRIKED!!!!!
totlaly in an envy mode..
Cedric?
aiya!!!
sure geng one!
everytime get the highest score!
LOL
totally in a very jealous mode!
why he play badminton better than me,
play bowling better better BETTER than me! LOl :'(
too geng!
chun san neh...
my helper help me to push my marks up!
nice player with very very strong arms!
XD
Edmund ,
hahax same level with me...
maybe better than me =P


words to readers,
thanks for viewing my laz post for 2010 (109th post)


words to me,
no try no gain,
never know tat i might be brave sometime!
=P
lion James was right!
express ur love to the people u like make u feel better at least.
dont care if he got feel or not.
so far,
harmless!
n.n
thx for lion james he said : True, no try no gain. I am proud of you, my brave girl !
although,
my legs are hand are colds while requested to say my true feeling,
hahax
now i'm still singing the song i love the most and enjoy my countdown!

I'll have a great new year after 1 and a half minutes

coz i've grow

^^

i did grow

^~^

proud of myself~

i dunno did i misunderstand or what...

i broke someone's heart :'(

i've been freaking myself...

no doubt

... Happy new year all...

suddenly, my mood was lost...

30-12-2010

cnt find a suitable topic...
XD


i bought myself a present...

my mum is so speechless when she saw wad i wanna buy.

but she say nothing coz i pay myself...

i'm old after 2 days...

i cant imagine,


how i look when i wear my new uniform 2 school,
walk to school in a fresh and cool condition,
walk home with a tired and hot condition XD
facing new teacher,
new rules...
face big challenge -- PMR
lol...
btw, not going to sit for piano grade 7 test...
i wanna hold it and prepare for 1 more year...
i wanna raise my standard instead of only pass for exam..
still not really want to be in a relationship,
enjoying current status...
^~^
i realise...
tomorrow i'll definitely meet you..
so strange...
i juz left u for several weeks,
but weird...
i wanna run :'(
run till a place where i will not see u forevr,
i dont wanna fall into agn,
tat's why,
i still unsure for my feeling.
i'm a failure.
i read both of your blogs.
:'(
which make my feeling grew stronger.
ai...
complicated!
Lol...


haiz,
hope i can wake for tomorrow's activity and will done my BC hmwk
>.<


when i say i miss holz means i miss camp, when i say i miss camp, i miss friends,when i say i miss friend, i miss joy, when i miss joy, i miss relax, when i miss relax, i miss sleep, when i miss sleep, i miss my sweet memory which came out in my dream, when i miss my sweet memory, i miss christmas, when i miss christmas, i miss lion james, when i miss lion james, i miss `someone`, when i miss `someone`, i miss my santa hat, when i miss my santa hat, i miss lee chun san for he gave me his santa hat, when i miss him, i miss afternoon session, when i miss afternoon session, i miss my ex-form teacher, when i miss him, i miss being a monitor, when i miss being a monitor, i miss our 2E choir's performance, when i miss that, i miss leo camp agn! @.@ yep, i'm juz bullsh*ting right now.. LOL.. reading ppl's mind might be a very bad talent...


when he say all the facts,
i can feel tat his heart is so disappointed and depress...
when she say her story,
i know how hard she work to survive.


when i say something,
no,
i think i should chg to a quite mode.
I should hate to chit-chat!
stay quite and cool.

maybe i like a quite life more then a cheerful life..
:'(

If i evr realise

If i evr realise
2010 is coming to the end...
I'll definitely put more effort at the opening of the year.

If i evr realise
i have so many friends compared by last year who i owes complain tat i dont ahve friends
i wouldn't keep hurting my friends and trust them :D

If i evr realise
i'm not suitable to fall in love with people,
i wouldnt take notice of any boys...

If i evr realise
leo club is the best,
i'll never argue it with anyone...
i myself know, then it's enough

If i evr realise
having a neighbour who is juz older than me 1 year is too nice
i would spend mroe time with u my dear Angeline~

If i evr realise
i'm so fear of everything tat hurt me...
why dont juz let myself get injured and ignore the fearsomeness?
i realise i over-protected myself
tat's true...

为什么现在才发现，
我很幸福，
就算，
我从未恋爱，
就算，
我从来不曾是受欢迎的。
突然想说，
那又怎样？
我有几个知心朋友，
就算是男生，
就算不同年龄。
trusting is very important!
if u dont 1st trust a person,
u wont earn his/her trust too...

it is omost end of year 2010..
currently,
i'm still unsure with my feeling...
i got a bible from Angeline :D


shocked when my bro tell me he is jealous coz i dont wan tell him who i `aim`!
muahahahax
ps wei~
i din do it purposely...
jux...
not willing to say..
but at last...
i told him =3=
fair lor..
so he wont jealous of Alfred liao!!
hahax


i wanna S-M-I-L-E =]

because the sky is there -- > a pretty nice song~

share share lyric~
meaningful!

``Turn around and look at the road you´ve followed
Lift up your head and look at the future you're creating!
When you become tired from trying so hard,
Look to the sky as you shed your tears.
The wind brushes your cheeks, I'm sure it'll say:
"It's okay if you fall. You are you and that makes you wonderful!"
Those that haven't been hurt cannot see the blue sky.
On a journey you hesitate to walk on, your life will shine.``




a true nice song with a true nice AMV

:'(

i didnt get stronger...
cried agn...
><
i din freak myself...
i'm juz too scare to hear bad news...

i cnt help to feel scare and cry..
i cnt even stop my tears...
i really realise that becoz of my sickness i cnt even balance myself nicely,
walk oso cnt walk steadily :'(
play badminton oso very stupid!


is my sickness getting worst or wad?


=(    :'(    T.T


my sky is so grey...
i should have be gay...


thx for my dear Alfred for keep building my confident  but i..
:'(
i'm still crying...
i have no confident right now...


i've no mood to do anything...

let me cry...
:'(

:'(

i cried..
yes i cried...

i'm scare of 28...
:'(

i told him i cried haha...
he was like -.-
=P
nah!!
i'm a crybaby!

see!
i'm making myself to laugh...
for what he said,
watch comedy..
nah...
no mood..
thus, i dont make friend with TV.
=P

be strong --- Lion James
be confident --- someone
i'm the best --- Edwina
my heart is with u --- Angeline
i give u full support --- Dar Chezzy


i guess..
i juz get a nice sleep
and enjoy playing badminton today..

i pray for everything will be alright!

S-M-I-L-E
although my legs and hands are cold...
i guess can do it!!!
:')

things had been turned around

things had been turned around
i've been fooled for all the times...


things chg when time past...
till u cnt recognize ur first sight...
but why my LOVE still remain uchg,
and even getting deeper and deeper...
but yours,
is getting lesser...
have i grow too big?
or are u tired with me?


i want more and more love from u...
but how can i tell?
maybe u never realise at...
all i need is u to spend some more time with me...


have u grown too big?
and cnt stand tat i'm childish and crybaby?
didnt u noe tat,
i juz want to remain unchg and needed ur hugs and time to spend with me?

skip skip skip...
i tried my best today to appraoch someone...
yay!!
i did it!
^~^
i grab the chance to get ur blog url~
MAN...
stop saying ur english might be lousy sometime...
LOL
T^T
i wanna bang my head to the wall!
walao...
why am i still fb + blog?
i should go to study lei wei!
thx 4 chatting with me tonight..
ur last word,
nice chatting...
i found myself at the heaven...
i'm too happy!

but,
i'm still a little bit unsure my feeling,
i like u as a friend/like u as a brother/like us as my bf/my feeling is juz temporary?
busy reading ur blog...
yes...
i owes wanted to end our conversation first..
coz i scare i'll be lonesome if u go 1st.
but today..
we end it up together..
 but consider i type g2g faster 1 second...
XD

wad alfred told me,
understand him more!
ok...
i try to..
observe and make conclusion :
1, am i serious with tat
2, do i have fu
3, if yes, is he the type i like
4, if yes, wad he thinks bout me
5, if nice, wad should i do?

blah...
i have phobia towards relationships already,
although i never have a bf.
but i experienced something more complicated!
but lion james helped me to find my courage back
but it is hard to foret my past...
:'(
i'm too wrong laz time...
i realised my faults...
but i really dunno how should i apologize to u...
yey,
u;re not longer one of my blog's readers....
i'm no longer viewing ur blog everyday...


skip skip skip!

someone told me something i think that is meaningful enough :
            `` u're teacher's kid, so what? teacher's kid is not human?``
LOL
be URSELF....
ya,
it sounds too imposible to me..
but i'll try,
since ......
=D
enough...
i'm blessed...


lonely night,
having a nice chat with someone,
get motivated,
wanna study,
wanna be myself,
wanna get straight A nxt year PMR
never mention name at blog o.O
I love you -----> EDWINA!!!


hahahx
S-M-I-LE =]

christmas eve

i've been forcing someone to lend me his ears...
for i really wanna express my feeling...
i'm a failure i guess...
i tot i hid my feeling so deep already...
but...
as u know,
actually i give up for my feeling towards tat `someone`...

and i realise...
my head really messy...

past and future..
all are hardeer than doing homework...

thx for sharing ur story...

chat with chief and lion james...
make me feel not so hopeless now!
=D
having a good talk with lion james...
wow..
he is so open minded...
he ask me to tell the person i like tat i like him..
wow~
impossible for me...

keep chating keep chatting...
lion james said when he wants to hold your hand, you disallowed
did i...
he said next time u learn to hold the boy's hand...
then i said how bout if he reject
then he said then u kiss him
i said impossible
he said see? how to be bf and gf...
then i ans i'm juz 14 still so young
he said in this modern world 12 already start... ( true)
then i ans it dont last dong does it?
he ans true. experience

i omost fainted...
why he is so open minded!
he is juz like my daddy!


OK,
i admit i like YOU!
i pray to God...
that everything will be ok like wad lion james said!


S-M-I-L-E and try to be brave!!!
Cheers!!
Merry Christmas!!!
MUAKCS!!! ^^

I guess i

i guess i better dont be too kepo liaw...
the more i kepo,
the more i suffer...


keep u out of my mind,
stay cool and S-M-I-L-E~

present exchange ^^

when leo song ended,
i can feel my heart beating so fast!


i didnt aim to get yap leong's badge or something fancy,
i juz ever say that i wanted his present.

in the next scene,
a little present warped like a sweet is at my hand.
and it was his present.

i cant believe it,
i juz joke to him tat i'll pray to take his present and...
wow....
but i never pray for sure,
i juz have a little strong feeling in my heart while passing those present around that,
i wanna get tat.

ya,
i open it at last,
it is not a snowman as wad qiqi said!

我一层层地揭开，
每揭开一层，
我就越紧张。
甚至到最后一层的时候
我还闭上可眼睛。
我以为我手上拿着的是一个木制的雪人，
哈哈哈~
wrong information!
my present is  XXXXX
XD

i'm not sure,
wad is my feeling,
but this definitely is the best present for 2010~
although it is juz a simple thing,
but...
hmmm,
this is my first time to exchange present!
i'll keep it in a safe place ^~^
and maybe take it out sometimes.

and recall the memories we had,
smile,
talk,
laugh,
sms,
joke,
chat,
and leave i suppose?

this feeling is start from a question,
and a pity feeling.
then we became closer i get close to u,
know u better gradually...
nothing to be proud,
his boy friend like my bro noe his real characteristic too...
but among his girl friends,
i think i might be the very top people who noe the true him.

yes i admit i admire him,
but still unsure why do i do?
am i pitying him or wad?
the relationship between us now is juz good enough~
^~^ i dont wan a better or a worse one for sure!

why am i in this topic agn~
ok!
chun san's fault!
he brought me to my past day and make me rmb an emo boy...
i guess,
tat feeling is change already since long time ago but  we juz din realise tat...
maybe i dont like him for sometime already...
i'm still very unsure...
but i noe tat we wont have anything special since on,
i left....
how sad.
when i tot i really could make it but i FAIL.

how could i trust myself or give myself a chance agn if i really fall into agn?
wad should i do if i realise my feeling too late?
get hurt agn?

I'm still too young i guess ='(
i couldnt make it...
i have no bravery to say i like u or wadevr to the boy tat is special to me...
how could i let him noe if i'm not well prepared,
how could i success when i noe nothing?
strictly asking myself,
persuading myself,
not to fall deeper this time...
maybe friendship is juz a nice distance for me...
future is juz like daydreaming...
if i'm smart enough...
let everything to be normal...
hide my feeling deep deep inside my heartcore...

i insist to have distance to him...
maybe i juz act tat i dont care bout this.
becoz the day i dream will never come true for sure...

juz keep it inside my heart,
and keep it as a sweet memory,
after sometime,
when i recall it,
maybe it is juz a comedy in my past.

maybe i gotta hit bed rite now..
and forget bout those days...

S-M-I-L-E
be strong to face each tough and happy day!

Happy Winter Solstice ^^

It's all about LEO camp =)

wow~
Leo camp is a really great fun!
yup,
we played,
met new friends,
learned new things!

1st of all,
i really learn about teamwork!
i'm glad tat i have a superduerhyper great team captain ==> Nathan Hong!
really wanna say paiseh to him since i hurt him duh!!
btw, i really learned too much things from him.
he really can get all of us in work!
Cool leader~
I wanna be a leader like him too!
btw, congratz tat he is the best-male-leo!

2nd,
i totally in love with every leo~!
we leo are like a big family,
although we dont know each other at first,
but we'll get together and work,
and lastly we became friends!
i'm also in love with all those lions!
they're just so friendly, wise and caring.
I can never forget the hugs from lion esther and espeacially lion James Teo,
i can never forget his word ` be strong girl` when i cry in his arms...
tat feeling..
i feel so safe~
Hope i still can meet lion James...
i wrote something to him next to my contact no i wrote : I LOVE you  ur badges. muacks =)
hahax,
hope he dont mind...
yep,
i received a really nice badge for i sing a song in front of all leos all by myself,
i sang my new favourite song ` 她说`
tat time really embrassing since i half laugh half sing! muahahahaha
i also wanna thank lion esther for encouraging me towards my dreams!!!
and thanks all the leos when u say `Edwina is the best musician in the world` for three times...
yes i cried..
too touch!!
but i can feel the pwoer!
a strong feeling in my heart!
i'll go on my journey and use my emo to success!
tat's wad lion cecil taught us!
Lion James challenge us to write a letter to our parents...
my eyes turn watery when i wrote the letter...
i enjoy chasing the paper aeroplane with my dream on it!
YES!!!!
i'll reach my dream!

3rd,
lion James told us,
in this age,
we shouldn't differenciate between boys and girls...
and he asked girl to hold boy's hands and boy hold girl's hand,
and say LOVE me....
walao...
this is not the worst part...
the worst part is when he say --- ok now give ur friend a hug...
gosh...!!!
too embrassing...


4th,
i have lots of fun times with my school's leo,
we played UNO,
we played UNO BLOCK,
and having funs thru activities!
i get know many new friends too.
i enjoy the moment when i say `I love you` and hug u,
i can feel tat our heart is together...
i cnt forget the part when we sang the song `if we hold on together` together and hold hand...
Lion Esther is correct,
we have to appreciate the time when we're together.
we can always noe wat happen yesterday but we can never noe wad will happen tomorrow,
maybe the next time we met is after 5 years, 20 years, or we'll never meet agn~
yes i cried agn...
duh...
yes...
i'm really glad tat i gave myself an oppurtunity to participate in this camp,
i thank this camp for giving an oppurtunity to meet those lions and leos,
i'm so touch tat the lions and leos gave me an oppurtunity to learn many things!
lion esther asked us to left all the sad things at leo camp,
and bring all the happiness back.
lion James challenged us to hug our daddy and mummy when i;m home ( sry, i failed.. coz i straight away go to sleep and forget this challenge =P)

I'm proud to be a leo!
coz leos never give up easily when we meet difficulties,
we'll work together and find a solution to solved it.
i want to be a better leo,
i want to serve other!
i want to be a lion too when i grow!

lastly,
thanks for a friend Yvette who encourage me to overcome my Acrophobia
she also have that,
but she is overcoming it too!
ya,
we overcome it together!!
I can, i can, i can!!

i think tat's all for my post today...
i still got so much things to share...
maybe i'll share at the next post!
i cant wait to the year-end-gathering tomorrow night!
hope it will be fun!!
CHEERS~


S-M-I-L-E =]

LEO camp~~

all i done is pack pack pack

all i want is fun fun fun

all i do is enjoy enjoy enjoy

all i feel is excited excited excited

all i want is high high high

all i feel is happy happy happy

and it is my first leo camp experience~~

WOOTs~!

going with dear Aaron, dear bro edmund, dear bro Alfred, dear friend soon seng, dear sis yannie and her two sister (ang's sister! XD), dear fiance pui ni, dear friend julia, dear sis hui fong, dear lover hui meng and dear friend mark!!

hope our friendship wil be better and get well know to each other,

lastly i hope to learn many things and gain many greatr experience thr!

the ost important is having new friends!!!

^~^

=)

XD

=]

XP

=D

S-M-I-L-E-s!!! n.n

=P 

boo~

having really really bad mood after i found that im really XX

=3=

每个人都会有另一个自己，

而我的另一个自己竟是——superduperextrahyper AH BENG!!

really really like...

tat type of people who fight, who swear!

walao~~

i'm like a guai guai zai but maybe my real me is a very very bad person...

-.-

if i be the real me...

sure u guys scare tiok...

since nobody really really really see my wicked side o.O

better dont let u guys see =.="

booo!

i laughed only when i saw something really make me laugh like crazy...

then my mood turn good!

^v^

i was finding  抱きしめたい (dakishimetai 渴望拥抱你)'s MV...

but i cnt find it at youtube...

LOUSY youtube...

China's website 100% better then youtube...

booooo again!

continue my journey,

i found tamaki's concert MV

I really lmao i suppose when i see how weird he play guitar...

aiyo...

i noe celebrities want to act handsome mar...

but too over really really funny leh~

i asked my bro to see...

we both laugh together...

yup,

then my mood really turn ok...

now still listening to his song,

trying to find a nice one exclude memorize, dakishimetai and season...

the other...

not really nice =3=

i laugh more crazy when i found this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nl5yW-PGbJQ&feature=related

his english pro till!!!

eh so weird de....

ordinary people will applaud celebrities tat they like rite?

why am i pointing out his bad things?

ya ya ya,

he's cool,

he's handsome (i guess),

he play guitar,

he sing,

he act.

YUP!

totally beautiful 

PERFECT he smoke!!!!

and he drink!!!

blah blah blah...

i'm still saying his non =P

blah blah blah~~

share lyric~

比任何人都 渴望擁抱 你 給了我不再迷惘的心情

渴望守護 筆直地 注視我的那雙眼睛

心繫的場所 兩人攜手應該能共赴 我願帶你前往

“你就是 我一直在尋覓” 現在 ，我終於發現到

雖然我不會說出口 但卻摟住了 你的肩頭

你還不了解嗎 全部的我 會不會令你有不安的感受 ?

不需要隱瞞 我希望可以靠你更近

比任何人都 渴望擁抱 你 給了我不再迷惘的心情

渴望守護 筆直地 注視我的那雙眼睛

心繫的場所 兩人攜手應該能共赴 我願帶你前往

陰霾的天空 晴朗的早晨 無論什麼樣的日子 只要在你的聲音下

睜開眼睛醒來 世界 總是溫暖地環繞著我

想見你 卻見不到你 也有這種令人心急的時候

然而愛的心意 卻將我們聯繫在了一起

渴望擁抱 明天 讓我倆 一起在那熊熊燃燒的朝陽中

將幸福 緊緊烙印 在心中

與你的相遇 想必那就是 我誕生在這世上的目的

比任何人都 渴望擁抱 你 給了我不再迷惘的心情

渴望守護 筆直地 注視我的那雙眼睛

心繫的場所 兩人攜手應該能共赴 我願帶你前往

渴望緊緊擁抱你 在熊熊燃燒的朝陽中

將幸福 緊緊烙印 在心中

與你的相遇 想必我ㄧ定就是為此 知道了「愛」的意義

=P

looking forward to ---------> L-E-O CAMP!!! muakcs

SmilE~ ^^

Copy copy cat! =P

i wanna be another copy cat~

copy my friend miss ing since she copy my thing too!

hahahax

let me list down Nana's Besties 2010 list :

~~> CSY -- 4ever da jie Miss ying~ =]

~~> PXN -- 4ever lao ban! XP

~~> CQQ -- 4ever dar~ =)

~~> LHJ -- 4ever hanie! XD

~~> LPXY -- 4ever papa~ =P

~~> NKSK -- 4ever Beib! ^~^

~~> FJMT -- 4ever Wifey =D

i really great that i met CSY & PXN...

i really feel like tat should have know u guys since form 1!

you guys are juz so great~

and i'm juz so LUCKY!

I HOPE THAT WE GUYS STILL ARE BESTIES AT 2011 AND YEARS ONWARD! =]

I also wanna thank that `` someone special``..

i really thanked u.

Thanked that u ever accompany me for those hard days.

sorry that,

i din make it.

nvm,

jia you ba!

Ganbare my frenz~

^~^

S

M

I

L

E

^~^

earn RM 50 becoz of EMO!

I earn RM 50 becoz of EMO!

lihai le?!

ENVY rite?

^^

tat's how it happens :

Mummy, i'm so sad ar... i din get top 3 for the overall.

U c, lee tyng de 3rd and 4th exam de average is around 86++ but my 3rd is 82++ only, so my overall average is juz 85++ nia.. :'( (i showed a very very sour face) then my mum get her purse take out RM 5o and said "nah give u, dont be sad lia... everyone noe ur 实力 lah..." but i'm still showing my sour face, and i said something really really xxx i said : even u give me 1 billion i oso feel bad.." then my mum said : "ok i regret liao, give back the money." my next action is -- quickly keep the Rm 50 inside my pocket XD then daddy bring us go eat ABC and bought chocolate. then i ask him buy seaweed inside the shop, but he dont wan coz he dont like tat type. but after i wake up from my nap, i saw a pack of seaweed on top of the dinning table and i was like T-T touchhh~~~ noted, he bought 2 pack of really nice cookies and a pack of bisuit! ~v~ happy-ing! hahahax

the other thing make me emo :

After being lazy for several days, my hand is very stiff oredi... T-T cant play song smoothly, SAD enough~ then really worry, keep practise practise... but still T-T aiya!! totally regreted :'(

this morning, my mum showed me the newspaper, i was like O.O wah, feel like the whole world turn for ME, juz for ME!!! laz night i said tat i hate lee tyng! then this morning the newspaper wrote : if u hate anything this year, list it down, if u can forgive, forgive; if u can release, released..

Tried to list down here =P

The people i hate 2010

—————————————

1, CLT -- i choose to forgive XD

2, FC -- i choose to release

3, FE -- i choose to forgive

4, WSW -- i choose to forgive

* i cant think of anyone who i hate le =.=*

GOD!!

tomorrow going to Norma...

meet doctor...

PA PA!!! SCARE!!!!

:'(

haiz...

GOd bless me...

roaming around doing nothing...

Cheese din reply my fb...

i broke my own promise go find u...

but u din reply! @.@

angry-ing!!

grr....

hahahax

Be yourself, love yourself, and be the best!

S-M-I-L-E

=]

Totally mad in heaven!

The Happiest day i suppose,

i laugh inside chun san's car till stomachache and needed be sent to Timberland.

Qi's fault,

who ask her T-T

need to 以身相许liao!

wuwuwuu...

Qiqi u muz be responsible ar!!!

T.T

totally mad again when i know tat i got 1st with average 89.1 for the 4th exam!

Waliu~

but sadly,

i din get top 3 for the overall...

kinda sad!

i did my best.

arh,

juz let me pray tat Cikgu Daryl will die soon.

who ask he ruin me!

damn it!

btw,

honestly,

feel not suprise at all when i get 1st,

dunno why...

x.x

feel a little like i deserve it,

in the other way,

i feel shame for my laziness...

realy complicated...

but i dont want think about it liao....

All over,

i juz want to put more efford on music!

My dream -- get into a music college/university and be a musician, noted *famous* musician.

hahax

ambitious rite?

cant bear it!

i was so proud when i still can play SUMMER by joe hisaishi without refering he piano sheet.

i went to meet Mr Tay and ask bout my violin stuff...

fianlly noe wat's wrong with my violin playing skill...

gotta practise practise and be perfect i suppose?

oh ya,

Good luck to my friend -- Angeline

she's going to have her grade 8 piano exam on 15th Dec hope she can get distinction and 8 As as well for her PMR!!

=P

currently,

i'm drown in listening Joe Hisaishi's music,

i love soft music!

i love my paino bf and my violin husband!

muacks...

and qiqi + niie lor~

hahahax

struggling these days ^~^

to someone who really special to me...

-i'm really sorry that...

that day's joke really came into my mine...

i wanna leave.

u really act weird till i cnt even accept tat type of u.

U said u'll change...

hahax

but for me,

u did change,

but u become more weird and a little .....

i noe u'll get hurt again...

Sorry!

besides doing this,

i really dont know wad should i do...

u stressed me.

and...

make me feel down.

maybe getting u to change is a wrong thing.

wish tat we'll still good friend..

but if u think i misunderstand u...

u can find me and explain.

i really catch no balls these days...

U so far away and never let me in.

not even a little step.

i'm really disappointed of myself.

maybe i'm not good enough :'(

...............

`Love is rare, life is strange, nothing lasts, people changes`

:'(

i logged in fb juz for some reason XD

hahahax

tat's all for today i think.

Happy birthday to Ced,

hope u like my present~ =)

S-M-I-L-E XD

CHanGe~

Changed my blog template~

=P

look quite nice i think...

nothing special for today~

mum make noodle herself,

success lar,

nice and yummy~

n.n

but,

i turned to lazy mode again.

i start a new animate,

他和她的事情~

walao~

real nice,

for me,

it juz let me feel like very 贴近my life.

the main characer inside there is just another me!

AMAZED,

and the male main character is really alike with *someone*

but,

hahax,

but the main character's relationship make me a little envy i suppose~

tat type of life~

changing and being the real `me`when the relationship start~

wow~

COOL!

but still,

the drama Nodame Cantabile is still recalling inseide my mind.

Orchestra is a dream.

Pianist is a dream.

Being famous and talented is a dream.

*You* are one of my dream too~

=P

life only can go on when we have dreams,

dreams are just like my target,

i'm gonna hit all my target,

and b a better me.

Well,

it really failed everytime!

XP

1st,

i never really put my heart in violin,

how can i join an orchestra?

2nd,

i also never be hardworking to practice piano,

how can i be a pianist?

3rd,

before being called talented,

many effort is needed,

but i'm juz lazy~

how can i success?

and the 4th,

how can i reach u when i never have bravery,

hahax~

i'm still too YOUNG i suppose?

=P

hey,

i dont know love,

i never know love well,

even in loving family, and friends...

hehe XP

currently trying my best to learn to love when watching this animate...

Should success this time,

i've grown!

and

S-M-I-L-E =]

*wink*

~n.n~

I'm back i'm back i'm BACK!!

woots~

=P

happy dao~~~~

btw,

laz night i realy did something `wrong` i suppose,

i think i joke till too over ki~

aiyo...

dont mind my words lah.

if you mind,

bo bian lor....

PIANO!!

i played piano!!!

yay~~~

happy till~~~~~

so excited when i saw, touched and played it!

muacks my dar~

suddenly,

i found tat the blog i like the most is ----- da jie's blog,

dunno why,

so ngam my taste!

the background really attravtive and nice!

i like the posts very much too.

the only blog i keep comment!

L-O-V-E it!

isn't S-M-I-L-E-ing right now,

i felt a little a little stressed...

i want to laern cantonese,

can anyone teach me.

REASON ------> parents are bring me and bro going to hong kong next year, if i cant speak and understand cantonese sure rugi de!

HELP HELp HELP!!!

whoever us kind,

u can teach me cantonese start from tomorrow =]

i wanted to laern French too!

if i'm really determinded and wanted to be a musician,

i must go to French to study!!

Make sure i can reach the top!

i have to laern the langguage rite now!

Besides that,

i also wanted to learn japanese badly too!!!

although i can write/speak/understand a little,

but i know the vocab is really too little lar!

hope can achieve a higher standard!

tat's all i guess~

juz

S-M-I-L-E =P

In love with linda's blog!

In love with linda's blog!

really!

not joking,

not kidding

not cheating!

so WHY?!

coz i love the music's box song lurh~

hehehe!

if got more nice instrumental music,

introduce to me o~

2nd day at serian,

still tried my best untuk mengambil kesempatan untuk update blog,

appreciate lor~~~

=3=

hehehe XD

going home tomorrow,

ate rambutans,

ate oreo!

geng rite?

^^

btw,

i have nightmare last night,

duh!

i dunno wad to chose

STAY / L-E-A-V-E

stay = going backwards

leave = going towards in swift paces

i tot YOU are non of my business...

but YOU are also the reaason make me emo + cry

KENAPA?

WHY?

WEi SHEn ME?

=[

=P

Serian~

went to serian

OVERNIGHT!!!

woots??

no no no~

i miss my piano so much!

i wake early today,

and i quickly jump out and practise my piano!

=P

i revised my piano grade 7 exam pieces!

i gotta jia you and go for the exam during PMR time!

so dont say i'm too crazy!

i'm not too over~

i'm counted as slow and lazy oredi lei!!

=3=

aduh!!!

missed Nodame Cantabile so much too.

the drama and the piano sheet~

love the song

love the orchestra~

and the concerto i wanted to play with my bf~~~

^~^

maybe going o fish tomorrow!

hope i can fish many many fish!

hahahahax

really addicted with tamaki hiroshi's memorize~

ooh~

i went to watch 2 set of basketball competition!

the team i supported juz Won!

my 眼光 so good wei!

and i spotted a handsome and pro boy~

really pro till

he shot many 3 marks ball~

i'm really really tried my best to grab the oppurtunity to blog!

since my bro really boh ka si...

even at other ppl's house still keep using the comp!

ngai ti~

maybe i'm oso not good to use the comp too long~

hahaha

maybe i juz stop here

S-M-I-L-E

=]

missed my dar -- Shinichi!

muacks~

huhu~~

yipee~

i posted a new page entitled 'Nodame Cantabile 交响情人梦'

go support support bah~

i wrote it in english,

main reason is to polish my rusted english~

^~^ hehe

have fun times with friends again~

i fed the old people in Lion Nursing Home with birthday cakes~

=]

btw, i realised something sad,

:'(

duh~~

i cnt help to suddenly turn to emo mode~

but i juz do my best to off it in case qiqi found out and kill me~

teehee=)

then went to Boulevard with aunt and mummy,

we shop for 4 hours

O.O

wow rite?

bought a cross necklace,

nice lar~

felt sorry,

i keep being emo....

and eyes is owes watery~

:'(

dont know emo for what.

when i reached home,

i straight away wash my hands and bump on my piano chair and go 'ding dong ding dong' on my piano,

satisfied after playing for some time! ~~~

haahaa~~ =]

currently,

i really wish to play

Mozart: Double Concerto - Piano Concerto No.2, Op. 18, Movement 1 (莫札特：双钢琴鸣奏曲）

with my bf next time~~

=P

argh~

but,

i really need to wait for a very loooooong time when i study at music school~

daydream-ing

dont bang my head and make me wake~

juz let me dream so that i'll put more and more efford on my musical instrument~

aaaaaah~

so niceeeee this feeling!

Piano ga daisuki~

muacks~

S-M-I-L-E always~

=]

sorry

Sorry for being EMO

Sorry for not feeling hang out with friends

Sorry for wasting eight years

sory for my parents for wasting their money on my music class fee

Sorry for hating my musical instrument before

Sorry to myself

to be so lazy and playful, not concentrate....

and sorry top someone, i cant make it...

i leave :'(

my current aim : able to practise my musical instrument 5 hours daily, 8 hours for sleeping, 2 hours learning, 1 hour play computer...

current status : still not able to practise my musical instrument for 5 hours T^T, slept for 6/7 hours, 0 minute learning, at least 3 hour play computer :)

qi said tat she dont wan to learn till crazy,

but honestly, it is my current aim!

u noe the character inside the movie said he ever learn his violin till omost Hematemesis

dont say it is not real.

let me reask u

can u do that,

have u got tat type of concentration?

can u ever do till like that!

u cant rite?

aim to be able to concentrate!

i will success!

besides that,

i wish i could memorise all the paino sheet i've learn~

ooh~~

how nice to express myself through my memorisation.

Nodame Cantabile

you're really my savior~

and chiaki shinichi.

i admire this phrase

``熟知音乐理论 用理性对作品进行准确判断的人 才是音乐家

只是使乐器发出声音的叫做 乐手

— — Shinichi Chiaki ``

(P.s my piano's name -- Shinichi is named after i totally admire that conductor(chiaki Shinichi), whereas my violin;s name -- Shinichi too is named becoz kudou shinichi(Detective Conan) play violin too~)

haha~

ok it sounds childish~

^~^

but at least i really treat them as my buddies so i gave them names!

=]

hrmp~

somehow... my heart really `plang` break...

:'(

is it becoz the song is too touching?

why am i cry and keep whipping my tears...

gosh~

anata wo wasurenai

sumimasen...

koinishinai

:'(

shikashi

tsukareta watashi...

sorry if you felt annoy bout those japanese word...

coz i'm not really brave enough to let someone know that meaning...

demo ongaku wa saiko!

=]

(music is the best)

^~^

i'll go on myself...

without you this time!

this is the 1st time...

i feel like going on myself!

although it is very lonesome,

but i shouldn't be so rely on you!

yes i should go.

and stop disturbing you...

I have music,

i have to be happy and grateful,

otherwise i wont perform a great music!

S-M-I-L-E!

XP

~(n.n)~

i dont know how i long i cried~

gosh~

NODAME CANTABILE!

my savior!

a real great drama which used THREE-and-A HALF year to make it!!

****** 3 1/2 year!*******

if not mistaken is from 2006-2010.

great music.

great orchestra.

touching love story.

it is not only a film,

but a dream for everynight.

of coz,

it is not only a dream to make everyday,

but a dream for me to put in my heart my efford,

and at last,

i stand on my stage,

enjoy my music!

saigo no kisu,

hontouni sugoku kandoushimashita

shinichi chiaki & nodame megumi

how wish i can be the second of nodame!

but i'm who i am!

i'll be better!

Tamaki Hiroshi

u're too lucky to be a conductor in nodame cantabile!

i bet it is a really cool experience!

argh~

and u can sing!

blah!!!

Ueno Juri

i totally jealous bout you!

T^T

hrmp!

I gotta run!

run fast!

i'm still 14!

i can do it!

reach my target!

Musician!

CHEERS~

bless me~

and see me fly fly high in the sky~

n.n

Time will go~

i'll be quicker!

CHALLENGE the t-i-m-e!

(p.s love my bf --- piano. I cant live without you~ muacks~) muahahaha~

(p.s ok i still like my husband --- violin! and my lover --- guitar, i will touch u after i mastered my piano & violin exam pieces! @.@ muacks~ )

@.@

i'm short-circuit again!

but i still remember my besties~

muacks to u too~

seriously hurted...

I've been living hopefully these days!

I really did!

after watching nadame cantabile!

i'm seriously know what i really want!

What i really love.

What i wanted.

What is my dream.

I dont only want to be a super duper musician!

I want to be a famous, well-known and skillful musician!

and join orchestra!

not only orchestra,

i want to graduate from a music school!

and have a really great love story i suppose!

i want to have lots of friends~

who support me whenevr i fall!

who we perform and work hard together in orchestra!

morever,

i wan to form a band!

and enjoy music!

do performance around the world!

i really put efford at piano!

even my piano teacher gave me a very very hopeful expression.

Yes!!!

even teacher gave me hope!

but then...

my mood is going downwards like this :

in the heaven

|

|

|

|

|

v

down on earth

seriously hurted by aaron's words...

of coz not his critizism...

i've been a really great Leo and support him...

it is juz...

his observation...

I hate that when he say that...

my friends,

my bro looked at me and my face is really....

i have to smile,

like i dont care...

but hey,

i really CARE!!

100% not aaron's fault!

i dont blame other...

i blame myself for being so blind i suppose?

no i'm not blind!

i'm not!

btw,

brought good news for frenz...

i have a boy friend now~ :D

not who that u think!

absoulutely not that guy u guys noe!

so i should really wipe off my tears :'(

thanks for nodame cantabile,

u saved me from a blur future!

thanks!

呼呼~

只是简简单单的一首音乐，

让我喜欢到你的部落格里游荡。

我不会像到其他人的部落格里，

赶快找到他们的音乐盒然后按上‘暂停’的按钮。

简简单单，

平平淡淡，

又有一点点的伤感。

Going back to life where got friends around for 1 DAY~

lion nursing home sale...

ok...

we got $1000,

nice lar...

sushi group,

totally crazy,

hui luh made "friend-rice-sushi" but nice wor~ hahax

then many many many many funny things happen..

juz a little not comfortable when seng wei keep 'sui sui nian' beside me...

if so beh song dont make the sushi lar..

and then tat fanny~

walao,

really COOL enuf to make every suan her.

LOL,

tat LCS still kolian her...

really dont understand!

tat type of person is kolian-ed by LCS

ngai ti....

btw, LCS really kelian too...

high-5 to Qiqi!

=3=

*************************************************************

actually i was really not used to see many people,

and feel very shy towards them...

ish~~~

then when kris asked me to call somebody,

i'm really great tat my phone omost dun have credit le..

U SAVED ME from explode... n~n

but when tat somebody urn up,

i'm not normal again..

shortcircuit~

************************************************************

then i got bored again...

really doing nothing...

i went into my warm blanket then i received somebody msg..

then...

then no electricity...

then `rock` my guitar...

rock till my finger...

then change to piano...

try to memorise that `toonicesong`

--Summer from joe hisaishi

damn nice...

never knew tat japanese composer oso good leh~

i only noe Yiruma ( korean)

totally fall in love towards Japan!

i love Japanese -- Animate!

Sakura~

Song!

Composer!

Music~

SUSHI!!!!

Salmon fish~~ ^^

Kimono~

i think i better stop before i become crazy~ hehe ^^

i definitely will grab chances to go to Japan...

before that,

have to save alot of money~

whole load of money to shop JAPAN!!

woots...

thinking too much only =]

***************************************************************

i feel like continue k-on,

but i really scare i'll go ------> T-T when i watch the band member leave school.

sure very touch~

only if i can experience band life too~

with 4 really really great friends tat stick together and train band everyday,

go training camp together during Holz,

go to play everyday,

do performance everyday...

and this is definitely imposssible!

it is juz a dream...

i really cant imagine that one day i;ll experience this type of life,

unless i chg school,

unless....

haiz...

juz unlucky,

i din live at a place which have music culture... nvm~

juz let me day dream,

who noes one day my dream will come true!

=P

低落~低落~ :'(

毕竟年纪还是太小，

自以为什么都懂，

自以为什么都 'daijyoubun'...

可是，

其实什么都，

‘糟透了！’

T^T

~.~

要开始加油了。

已经浪费很多天在玩耍上了。

T^T

着急丫~

不行不行！

为了自己，

我正式宣布，

退出面子书。

O.o

为什么？

因为呐，

面子书是脍子手，

总会让我把时间浪费在很在根本没有意思的东西。

所以....

=P

开心呐！

终于作出一个对的选择。

加油！

****************************************************************

今天当我在走街的时候，

突然听到一个妇女大叫。

B-I-N-G-O

我简直lucky到目击到`抢钱包`的现场直播。

虽然抢匪是失败了，

可是还是让她逃之夭夭。

无言……

丑陋的社会。

***************************************************************

今天我的心酸溜溜的……

我发现爸爸老了，

怎么我还没长大？

T^T

我要快快长大！

尽管，

我很舍不得，很不愿意长大。

:'(

长大后，

我不能像现在这样天天发白日梦，

也不能撒娇（简直要我的命），

也不能要抱抱。

=3=

我懂我很孩子气。

其他朋友都没有像我这样了。

个个都比我独立。

怎么办哟~

:'(

长大长大...

T-T

*********************************************************************

其实我很愿意承认，

我是个很冷漠的人。

我不会去主动找别人，

尽管假期无聊又寂寞...

想对朋友们说声抱歉，

如果你认为我对你很冷淡，

但是我真的不是故意的。

每次到假期的时候，

我会觉很失落，

然后又自我封闭。

paiseh la~

我会努力矫正我的行为。

请你耐心的等待。

*********************************************************************

好久没有像今天这么用心地更新部落格。

只是现状让我很无奈。

时间太充足...

发呆发白日梦的时间也多了，

想了很多有的没的，

才想起，

我最初的自己。

最初

我要的是什么？

我想过什么？

我对我自己又发过什么誓？

我对自己的要求是什么？

我的梦想是什么？

我的原则是什么？

我要改过什么？

什么是我想过的生活？

好多好多，

我都忘了。

悲哀，

我忘了最初的自己。

我不知不觉，

也和其他人一样，

追求，

即使伸出手去，也无法得到之物，

一旦松开双手，即飘然远行之物，

然后，不知何时，就迷失了自己。

这段很酷吧？

是看了动漫才点醒自己的...

动漫，

果然是最美的梦。

就这样，

一直一直被感动着，

或许你不能体会我的心情。

没关系，

相信我，

开心走下去就对了！

=]

T^T

wuwuwuuu....

totally...

specehless~

sob~

sob~

sob~

wuwuwuu...

iya na!!!

T.T

iya iya!!

wuwuwuu....

T-T

iya~~~~

T^T

is this counted as blog post?

T^T

haiz....

HAIZ....

体弱多病就算了，

每次第一天的时候都要让我躺在床上辛苦一整个早上。

看到我躺在床上还吐糟我那还真的是算了，

竟然还跑出去玩然后丢我在家。

算了...

电脑终于强到来用了。

也不多说废话，

PPS 去了~

=.=

PPS PPS,

haiz....

BORED~~~~

wow~

totally....

gan dong till cry~

my dearest cheese done something make me really gan dong till got tears in my eyes..

muacks Qi...

I love you!

LOVE ya 4evr~

btw,

dun worry,

u noe de la,

i'm owes like tat

laz second i'm still crying,

next second i was like XD.

hahax~

today,

my mood turn from :'( till XD

smiling really wide!

bought many new clothes!!!

woots thanks for my mum~

muakcs~~

but haven buy any trousers and shoes...

aim for short trousers but hard to buy lor...

since my leg very....

ah-hem u understand...

my mummy keep complain and ask me to be slimmer...

say till me hin hin....

=P

ok lah... be rajin this holiday lor...

u never noe i oredi become slimmer these days liao ler...

T^T

nvm!!

juz GAMBATTE!!!

Nana wll success!!! yoohoo~

(P.S : today oredi gain many calories le T-T...

ate too many delicious food~

mummy chia mar~

then i chia her back so... =.="

neeed rajin loooooor~)

btw,

he made promise again...

hrmp....

dunno is he realy determine to do so already...

or he is like last time...

i guesss....

i'm not stupid to believe a guy who really want to change?

give him chances...

keep giving...

till one day he really knew wad he should do.

ah...

everything is fixed~

so relax...

hahax~

=]

i juz promote

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S-M-I-L-E =] XP

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为了你我努力变的完美，
努力做得更好。
你却说你没资格。
我到底该怎样？

为什么，
只是开开玩笑的说我离开，
你立刻消失在我的梦里。

心里在下着雪，
很美，
但也很冷。

我迷路了~

totally....

Totally no mood ki...

nvm... i juz off my hp...

i guess....

animate is my only shoulder..

i can only keep on watching keep on making myself busy... and...

off my phone :'(

hrmp~~

SICK whole day,

lack of oxygen, no energy, lost apettitde, owes sleepy and tired, even lazy to talk...

see how silent am i today~

even dont feel like move my finger tips... .__.

until a very kepo guy,

live at jalan semaba de,

make me really mad till wanna tampar him, slap him, do wadevr to hurt him to satisfy myself!

grrr...

i guess u guys noe who is he!

KEPO!!

really KEPO!!!

argh~

cool down cool down~

today i realised me and penny really alike~

WOW~~~

good my `lian ti ying`

:)

cool~

Gemini~

I love you fiance~ muacks~

haiz..

sienz~

SICK~~~

T^T

since laz 2 days...

you seems like bo mood~

and then u're getting colder agn...

:'(

i dunno wad to do.

Did i do wrong anything?

T_T

can u S-M-I-L-E be happy and a little mroe outgoing?

and OPTIMISTIC too~

pls dont be cold...

i hate tat feeling~

Juz S-M-I-L-E i guess,

the only way...