nine minutes ♥

juz nine minutes....
and i'm so bliss

i fall for ur cute sound,
and i was like...
enjoying at the sofa there...
=>

i seriously like ur voices~
let me hear~
whenever i feel like
okay?
=)

first time calling u were last night~
and we ended our conversation juz for a few seconds i suppose... ♥
juz a `goodnight` u make my night

today...
a month already....
=)
nevermind....
u're still with me... isn't?
i'm not alone though.. =)

=)
guy,
seriously,
i fall for you... =)

see my post full of smiley face...
u gave me happiness...
^^

累

最近很累
永远都睡不够
晚上睡着了又做梦
搞不好还一边做梦一边心痛
梦到的都是
暂时还做不到的事情...

不哭了
朋友说哭对眼睛不好

忍住没有哭
谢谢你
Julia ♥
u gave me a nice time...
on phone till earache~~
argh~~
hahax nevermind.. i love you!

shocking news...
i got dilema now...
should i tell, or not tell...
if i tell.. 3 ppl get hurt... ( maybe 2 only, or maybe 1)
if i dont tell,
still everything will happen one day...
hahax
ok lah~
dont wan tell liao~
muahahahaha~
coz i gone insane...
O.O
oops...

i'm called a nerd...
well... i'm owes lidat....
hahax
do i really have to chg?
nah?
fasion girl is not really my style...
=3=
at least not now i guess...
Julia....
wait slow slow o..
i'll chg slowly,
bit by bit~
hehehe~ =)

I like you! seriously...
=)

if only the day tat julia imagine would come...
it'll be great!
super duper nice to the max X)

i called a timid....
:')
I AM
hahax

tired...
i want to sleep...
but i still got lots of work~!
hahax

=)
sweetest smile for u julia~
and YOU!

一半 -- 丁当

喝酒的伴
一起看电影的伴
早午晚餐的那个伴
朋友不能留得太晚
明天要上班
唱k的伴
一起去旅行的伴
听懂我的笑话的伴
我的生活 
只差那个人就美满

快乐剩一人分享
快乐就只剩一半
喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单 这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
噢吼~~
没人分享
幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填满
节日却提醒我孤单
没有想法
有想法又能怎样
只能写部落格整晚
几个留言安慰不了
心里的遗憾
没有负担原来也是种负担
自由多得让人心慌
你羡慕我
那要不要跟我交换
快乐剩一人分享
幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子都填满
别来提醒 我的孤单
*******************************************************************************
在脑海中来回转动的旋律
原来是这首歌....
眼泪不争气地掉了
当和我两个`特别`的朋友谈天
话题围绕着他
我愣住了
当我朋友说
：‘你喜欢他什么，他有什么好’
我心想
他...其实比任何人都关心我 （我觉得）
他教会我很多
教会我什么是爱
我曾误入歧途
是他把我带走
我失去信心的时候
他会帮我把它找回来
他会跟我说晚安
就算我们吵架的时候
虽然
你有时候
很不主动
有时候也冷冷的
或许会说一些莫名其妙的话
让我很担心
在打这个部落格的时候
我才发现到
你对我的好我都记得很清楚
不好的
要想好久好久才想得到
谢谢你
对于我的不成熟
一次又一次的原谅
再过几天
我们就分开一个月了
这一整个月
我变了好多
潜意识中
我是在为你做改变
如果还有机会
你还愿意当我的另一半的话
那多好
=)

我...

我...
失望到很想放弃
想冷落我就说一声
我不介意！
我可以找别人
算了
以后我自动siam!
不用看你的脸色
不用听你讽刺我的话
不用在那边伤心
不相信我就算了
那以后我什么话都不要主动说了...

以为可以一直一直走下去的希望
又破掉一个了吗？

麻木了
原来我们的友情
这么 cheap...

看破了
不再期待
不再心痛
收拾心情

出发！

真心话 ♥

你是我的真心话

真心话需要勇气

所以我选择大冒险

骗得过所有人

却骗不了自己

太多藏在心里的话

一时之间

说也说不完...

说了

请相信我...

我真的好像叫你

宝贝

你知道吗？

and my dream

i had a dream...
sweet when i'm still dreaming,
turn bad when i wake and remember the truth...
u are no longer with me...
u have not been in my dream for some days already coz i tot u're forgotten...
but no...

i still got lots of dreams in you...
i know nothing about future...
i'm juz a dreamer...
a stupid girl...
who never know what's love
and break the relationship herself with regrets
for her first love...

there's too many memories between us..
i've been traped in those olden days...
if i'm not so 冲动
will there be any difference?
i changed a lot for you...
but i change more and more when u left...
and i started missing you...
well, i guess you'll never know unless u still loiter around my blog...

and my dream...
it never stop either...
i still cnt stop loving u...
although it's juz a dream...
ans i still dream tat there's still miracle.....

i'm juz a dreamer...
and my dream.....
it had never stop...
my tears stop,
but my love never stop....
:')

忘了...

忘记
我做不到
过去的事情
还一直在脑海里
超级好的记忆
也有缺点啊！

i ask myself~ (An old post tat i forget to publish... LOLx..)

i ask myself~
what did i get though...
did my sky turn bluer
did my sky become more wide?
are there still any happy bird flying at my sky?
:)
if i leap up high,
can i touch my sky with my hands?
have u remember those forgotten dream?
:')
those day dreams,
will they still come true?
I always assume that we can be together very very long...
and maybe hold hands one day....
but those sweet times faded away already...
how can those dream still come true?

so i ask myself again,
did u regret?
is there anything else u haven do?
any words u haven say?

honestly,
i have nothing nostalgic,
i decided to leave with no regrets...
and i think tat i already do my best by putting all of my afford...
but it seems like useles...
nothing change,
not even a single cell....
nothing for me to say....
maybe we are juz not the right one...
thanks tat u taught me
how to LOVE
how to CRY
how to GIVE
how to TOLERATE
the feeling of being needed is really nice...
u're the 1st person who gave me this feeling...
u taught me tat this world can never be pure and simple...
u taught to bully back and dont juz swallow my tears once again...
u told me nothing is perfect...
and i really understand now...
even love is not perfect....
can u teach me how to live without my past?
=')

********************************************************************

when i was with you,
i suddenly i can understand his feeling...
why he ever said tat he feel tired coz he missed me too much..
why he hate me forget to reply his msg,
fall asleep while sms-ing....
this relaly can crake our friendship,
since i've been so keen to you
this new friend,
can u please appreciate me a little more?

lonely... so what?

i tried to jump out from my small circle...
i smiled =)
seriously smile in a nice way...
although 50% is fake one...
but i have to let YOU know and let ME know...
without u..
i'm still happy...
i dont have u,
i still got my boy friends,
i dont have u,
i stll got my girl friends,
i dont have u,
i still got myself...
although...
becoz of u..
i started hating my bro.. :'(

我找到唯一不被剥夺
的小幸福
小小的幸福
我满足了

i dont wanna be greedy...
hug myself...
u never leave me...
coz u never get close to me...

still the same lonesome day...
so what?
so what?
so what?
i still got tears,
got smile...
i'm still me...

=)

try not crying tonight~
see whether if it success~

but laz night...
u still appear in my dream...
it's still u...
a little strange but still so familiar...
ur smile...
pretty face...
but...
it;s juz a dream...
a imaginary thingy~
wink wink

thanks andy for playing badminton with me..
although beat me for 3 TIMES!!
LOL nvm forgive u
^^
at least i moved...
i found tat i become very slow...
my head very blank...
beoz sick too long... swtz~
this time de test..
i dunno i can make it or not..
but still got time...
anyway,
juz prepare for the worst and jope for the best
=)

SMILE to my dear baby ( all readers)
muacksss

越来越陌生

日子越来越陌生
就像
这不是我的人生
我没有迷路
我很清楚我的去向
只是现在
我走在泥泞小路
没有你的帮忙
我走得跌跌撞撞

你的影子还在
我的心还是痛着
才发现
你的脸越来越陌生
很好不是吗？
本来就该和你保持远远的距离
我拿得起
就放得下

哭过了
就要长大
睁大眼睛
看清楚
现在是怎么一回事

忍不住我的眼泪
那篇作文
是我的伤口
我不想让人看到的懦弱

我很害怕
突然很害怕一个人

有空的话
找我聊天哟
一封简讯
也可以让我很开心

耶！
我想起了我们的大合照！
谢谢我可爱的朋友们
给我了一个美好的回忆
到现在
一想起我们的疯狂
我就忍不住开心了！
我们永远永远要一起疯
一起开心
一起玩！

忙忙碌碌

today is VERY busy o~~~
straight go for leo project after i wake and do some boring things,
go thr till 1 pm and we go to see a PLACE~
LOL
and got a very BIG conflict for me...
damn.. i hate my style...
not `gentleman` arh~ zzz
nevermind...
take all halangan as challenge!
i want to make it perfect and make u all know!
I CAN
booo!!
LOLx

then after that,
go home..
4 oclock already...zzz
then go kch airport to fetch my dear aunty from CANADA!!
WOOTS ~~
Happy to the max~~ XDDD
gave a big hug to my aunty and uncle~
muahahahaha~
then go eat dinner at relative's house~
talk with cousins~
nice!! ^^

and now... i'm sitting in front of the comp...
feel lonely again...
since i lost a real nice friend who owes find me
hahahax...
and i remeber andy's msg...
tat make me feel a little warm but i laugh until xxx when i read it..
thanks andy for chatting with me when i'm really bored...
hahax ;) wink wink~
and make me think of jackson
he so ROMANTIC towards... xxxxx ah hem hem hem!!!!
make me 傻眼！
hahax
and i remember last night~
we have lot's of fun
i fall in love with those guy friends and girl friends~
MUACKS ALL!!!
you all are my everything~
FriendShip~ evr!! woohoo!!

and my hmwk..
i haven touch it...
i din get my hmwk..
no ppl bring for me.. kesian betul...
so i need rush rush 2molo hahahax!
chinese dont need do also since i dont have my book~
=P
ok i admit i'm lazy~ hahax ;P

oh boy...
i din emo..
i din cry...
nice one~
FELICIA~~~ i think i success le! yoohoo~
:') still a little sad but...
hahahax so wad?

and guess what!
laz night my 5 boy friends help me to get rid my
BOYS PHOBIA!!!!
oh yeah~~
finally can talk to boy le!!
thx ya all~
muacks muacks muacks~
laz night my 3 girl friends chase away my emo mood~
and i'm happy till now!! hahahx
muacks & hug muacks & hug muacks & hug
^~^

but still...
it's still a little lonely and sad...
hahax
but at least...
i think i get out already~
haha.....

hope everyday is a nice day
for all of u who read my blog~
Love ya all BABY!!! XD

public blog~

woohoo~
finally wanna put this secret blog as private..
=.=||
WHY?
 coz andy wan view~~~ =3=
hahahax...

today we celebrate hui ju antrice's birthday~
too and high!!!
really crazy!!
well talk more 2molo.. today boh mood...

morning's rehearsal is great too...
shocked tat my friend got such nice sound...
~.~
then we sing k after we learn our performing song...
nice nice~~

then tat's all for today's post...
go mapling!! woohoo!!!

heart broken

heart broken...
i know i shouldn't
becoz i shouldn't heart broken becoz of you...
i will do anything juz to let u happy,
i'm willing to get any hurt to see u smile happily,
i wouldn't not like to see u emo again if this is a right choice~
i'll go if this is a right choice...
but we'll never know whether this is a right choice or not...
juz give it a try,
no pain no gain...
rite?
i wont cry this time...
becoz u involve
i know i must bless u..
although it really really hurts...
ahahahax
i'll grow...
i definitely will...
and i'll really forget wat is love this time...
after today...
today is the laz day i miss you...
in fact...
my heart will die tomorrow...
=)
thanks for giving me a fake hope...
and a real cool experience...
at elast i know i'm brave enough...
juz life isn't so perfect...
we must fall before we get stronger...
i know i must leave if u get what u wanted...


i want find a new friend and start building a new friendship
i get addicted in this...
friendship....


i know u always treat me like a sister...
a *cute* childish baby....
well, maybe this is the best way...
and we'll be friends forever....
i know we really couldn't be bf
u dun even trust me....
oh well....
friends....
i understand...
once a side dont wanna give her heart,
this relationship is consider as a failure...
i've been facing this problem...
and it did breaks my heart...
i know my heart is wounded seriously..
who cares? LOL

these days... my besties are like emo-ing...
only that wifey is so happy... =.= kinda envy?
i know u dont love me...
i know i *maybe* dont love u too...
but who cares now?
let it be, let it be, let it be?

我以为，
这一次的勇敢，
可以带我走向幸福的道路
谁知
我只不过是搭上了一辆出了轨的列车
终于下定决心
我选择离开
我选择寂寞
因为
这份幸福
真的真的不属于我
而你也做了选择
选择和她
普下幸福的和弦
我愿意当MV里
那个心碎又不能说的钢琴手

请给我散场的拥抱
然后
我会为微微笑
看着你努力
追求你们的幸福
这次不是我
也不是我们

你教会了我好多
好多我从来都不知到的事情
你给我的安全感
却让我现在更感到恐慌
我先放弃
是因为我怕留在原地的会是我
结果到最后
留在原地的依然是我

或许以后分担着你们的事情
会是我们最开心的话题

i still remember what u say...
长大是美好的
so i dont wan to cry tonight...
although.....
my eyes are watery...

i'll find a nw friend to replace you...
but sorry....
i'm not going to let anyone touch my heart again...
not until the suitable age...
:')

3rd day at home...

and i'm still sick....
S-I-C-K :'(
laz night i omost cry
i hate myself nia...
make ppl worry only :'(
cause trouble for people only...
i wan cry liao :'(

i wan ppl sayang me
LOL!!!

S-i-c-k =)

u touch my heart when u hold my cold hands and give me warmth,
u touch my heart when u straight away carry my beg and take my belongings and ask me go home
u touch my heart when u try to make me relax by singing to me
u touch my heart when u help to support me
my sweeties touched my heart....
thanks you all....
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥


I didnt blame God for making me sick and suffer,
i know you wanna bring me a special present :')
i received it and i really appreciate it,
Thanks Amen

God is like my father,
God love me whole heartedly,
God brought back my sweet memories,
God brought me warmth from friends,
God heard my prayers and decided to make me forget bout love.

and today,
i suffer from asthma at school...
grandma brought me home again...
it's really difficult for me to walk properly,
i felt so uneasy
gasping for oxygen...
i fely my world is turning and dunno will i faint at my very next step...
the 1st thing i reach grandma house is lie down on the sofa...
gasping for air again...
and hopefully i become better,
i try to sit up but
i cannot breath properly..
so i lie down again...

grandma gave me a bowl of porridge to eat,
tat bowl of porridge touch my heart
and i recalled my kindergarten memories tat had been forgotten,
tears in my eyes,
it's still the same taste,
the porridge cook by grandma,
which i ate everyday before grandpa drive us to q-dees,
it's my favourite,
porridge with soy sauce....
it's the taste that i eat every morning,
it's more like a habit.
i love grandma and grandpa,
they are who take care of me when i'm small...
when i lie on the sofa,
i remember how grandpa coax me to sleep,
and tat familiar surronding...
i was like going back to past,
and this is a very precious present that God gave me...
THANKS!!!

felicia told me tat i got 3rd for the english writing competition,
and i told my mum and say maybe is juz inside the class i get third,
who noes i got 3rd for the competition!
SHOCKED to the max,
i never get position for this kind of competition,
wow~
shcok... nice XD

laz night,
a friend said : u got so many nice friends hor...
i reply : ya i love them all! but last time, i ever dont have a single friend becoz of my f***inga**hole attitude...
well,
thanks for being my friends
thanks for bring hope and joy into my life,
i love u all forever and appreciate u all!!
T^T
touched!!!

and i still cnt remeber what is love...
i tried my best to get back tat feeling... but hahahx
failed~
and i think,
forget this maybe is good,
so i can enjoy friendship friendship!! XD

hope i can go to school tomorrow... ^^
i missed my friends~
did u guys miss me?
hahax

i juz feel like
i wanna
S-M-I-L-E again...
(P.S. i forgot how to emo too XD )
cheers~

画下无名故事的句号。

这是一个无名的故事
是那么的平凡
里头有
轰轰烈烈疯狂的单恋
失去温度的泪水
太多说不出的话
一度渴望得到的宠爱

这个故事
就像一个满是缺口的圆圈
我曾以为你就是填补那些空缺的空间
而我达上你那出了轨的列车
我用寂寞惩罚我的午夜
请让我走出对你的狂恋
不再延续我对你的思念

（改编自陈绮贞的《狂恋》）

病了
好久没这么难受过
好的是
头脑病坏了
突然忘记什么叫
爱情...

觉得怪怪的
好像什么东西不见了
却觉得好轻松的说~
哈哈哈
我知道我脑袋很夸张

突然想通了
我决定讲现在开始的每一个
不该拥有的东西
全都错过
（我脑袋真的烧坏了吧？）

哈哈哈
我不贪心
^^
有音乐就够了 ;)
有宝贝朋友就够了 hahahax

really sick dao....
没救了！
XD

我也只是个平凡人~

我没有炫人的彩衣裳
也没有俊俏的脸蛋
没有别人都有的双眼皮
只有平平凡凡的一张脸
所以又怎样？
我也只是个平凡人~

我没有什么特殊的才艺，
成绩比上不足比下有余，
是钢琴班里的吊车尾
只会画写乱七八糟的东西
只是略会卖弄文笔

所以又怎样？

我也只是个平凡人~

我也抵不过种种诱惑

我常常尝到失败的滋味

我也向往小说里完美的邂逅

少女情窦初开的梦我也做过

然而白日梦里的那个王子似乎不曾出现过

所以又怎样？

我也只是个平凡人~

直到遇见了你以后，

我开始觉得我有一点点的不平凡

尽管只是那么的一点点。

情歌开始越唱越有感觉

可是

那只是我觉得而已

仅此而已

所以又怎样？

我也只是个平凡人~

是第一次

鼓起勇气

想要付出

明明知道是错的人

却还是执迷不悟

我依稀看见

我们没有未来

我骗自己说船到桥头自然直

嘴巴说：‘我没期望很高’

心里却已在淌血

明明知道

这次一定会受伤

为什么？！

为什么我还是傻傻愿意相信你一次又一次说的谎？

我很清楚

我受伤了

却还是想要等待

宁可受伤也不要错过

因为我也只是个平凡人~

不是吗？

我愚，我痴，我还小

正处于懵懵懂懂的阶段

爱却悄悄萌芽了

想想，

不要用心

是不是就不会受伤

想说，

不要付出真心

是不是就不会痛到麻木

我也只是个平凡人~

或许我真的很不想错过

可是我还是得放手

虽然我只是个平凡人

你玩不起

*****************************************************************

以上也只不过是用我的角度

为我的朋友诠释她的烦恼

里头参杂着一些

我的心情~

^^

只是今晚
你又留我一个人哭....

Our song ♥

do you have any songs,

tat will make u remember something.

i have it...

lots of~

散场的拥抱-- it reminds me of you...

we're at a split road,

and we decide to go to our own way,

without each other....

Here I am -- still, it reminds me of you...

tat time i tot tat i'll lost you forever,

but we pass thru all those difficulties

爱上你 -- it's you again in my mind but with another guy

tat's the 1st time i cry for a boy...

1st time i need a shoulder so much...

1st time i hate that i love boy,

1st time i feel so glad tat i got you...

and it's my sweetest and the most bitter memories

My love will get you home -- it's YOU in my mind.

u said u're sad tat time...

i introduce this song to you,

u say it suits you,

and i try to step inside your world..

心墙-- yep it's YOU

i wonder why,

no matter how hard i try to get close to you,

epic fail everytime..

LOLz

and know i found that,

i've been addicted in a kind of sad and peaceful song,

i prefer japanese song...

a foreign language that i dont really understand,

and it touch my heart more,

coz i can hear the melody more clearly without knowing the lyrics,

and this is call touchy, peaceful, and nice...

music speaks,

it does!

speak much more louder and clearer than the lyrics,

did u ever discover that?

have u ever close ur eyes and listen to a `song` carefully before?

or u're juz reading the lyrics?

tat's the reason i fall for music,

when world falls,

only music speaks.

if there's no words,

music speaks

when there's nothing left,

music speaks....

why i suddenly think of songs?

hahax tat's becoz i'm kinda addicted with taylor swift's OUR SONG~

really nice song~

it's been a long time ago when i never know bout 

girls and boys...

and i regret to know it...

if i dont know bout love...

i wont suffer...

maybe we're all be buddies...

good buddies~

but what to do?

since i met *these* already...

maybe juz follow what lion james told me...

express out if u love someone,

dont scare to fall,

get experience~

and this is call life,

enjoy much much ^^

anata, suki desu

demo...

it's really time for us to let go each other =]

你知道吗？

你知道吗？

想念你，

可以让我莫名其妙地掉泪。

你知道吗？

我可以鼓起勇气为你做任何事情

你知道吗？

等你的一封简讯

可以让我多煎熬。

你知道吗？

你的潇洒可以多吸引我。

你知道吗？

我有多想进入

你简单的世界....

你都不知道

对吗？

你知道吗？

是你教会我，

简单就好

不要去计较

快乐就好

不要害怕

要勇敢。

是你让我知道

男生和女生不一样

有些事情

男生永远都不会明白

有些事情

男生永远做不到

女生想的

和男生不一样。

(以上，又是Nana的无聊灵感，别对号如座哦~）

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是你，

让我一直一直地在做选择

你不知道

对吧？

你不会明白我的顾虑

对吧？

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我想

或许不断不断地做选择

会让我更快长大

就算我的计划里没有要长大的这个环节

我会为了你把它加上去

我愿意相信你说的

“长大是美好的”

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附加一段无聊的对白：

我说 ： 手很酸啊！

你说 ：做么，挤到柠檬哈？

我说 ： 打针啦~ =.=

^.^

生活中偶尔有这些冷冷的笑话

或许我会活得更轻松

谢谢你带给我的美好

宝贝（至我所有的朋友）

我爱你！！

=]

真的...

真的...
我现在只想哭...

你失约了
你没有微笑
又露出那张
让我感到很冷感，很害怕的脸...

怎么啦...
从昨天开始
就对我很冷淡...
让你困扰了吗？
如果不喜欢我这个朋友
你可以说
不要这么冷淡
我会怕
真的会让我很伤心

失败了吗？
是不是交不到你这个朋友了？
:'(

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看到chezzy的部落格
突然想到一个东西
:]
男孩，
如果你不想牵起她的手
请拒绝她
如果你不想亲她
请别接受她的关心
请不要自私地只要她爱你
如果不想给她你的心
就不要接受她的心

男孩常常会让女生觉得他喜欢她
可其实他并不喜欢；
女孩常常让男生觉得她并没有动心
可其实她早就喜欢上了。
那你呢？ =）

（以上不针对任何人，请勿对号入座。以上纯粹是Nana无聊的灵感~ ^^)


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today we got INJECTION!!!
and i'm high till...
i'm smiling and laughing when people is scared...
woots~ i pro~
i rather get injected for 10 times i oso dun wan talk with boys! ^^


*********************************************************
(a week ago)
i said : i gave someone my heart but he throw it away
u replied : WHO! he dont want i WANT
i said : YOU! u threw my heart away
u replied : xxx (i forget wat u reply)

u said u want it... u did say u want it....

(few days ago)
i said : what is tat important thing tat i'm going to receive?
u replied : your heart?
i said :  i got it back already lah~
u replied : give me!
i said : give u already~
u replied : u really gave me ur heart?
( i sank to the bottom of the sea... disappointed)

well,
i can feel tat my body have a hole already....
it's empty
my heart is missing...
u took it,
and now...
u're selfish until u dont wan give me ur heart....
:'(
i know...
i have to wait...
i know friends need trusting...
and maybe u still dont trust me...
well, i'll wait...
wait till accept my freidnship~
:')

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i fall in love with jogging....
WHY?!
keep slim? ... too eng?
nope~
coz i wan make myself exhausted
then i wont think too much...
talking crap with angeline definitely is one of my hobby...
unfortunately...
when i go out from the gate,
i saw FABIAN!!!
LOL...
so worry and nervous...
i act like i din saw him...
and he talk to me...
i simply simply reply...
AND THEN!!!
my saviour came!!!
Angeline is thr already~~
i quickly run to her~~
phew~~ tat was close =.=v

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flawless guy~~~
flawless you~~~
i want to be flawless to!!
Can I?

please give me ur sweetest smile~
coz i need it...
=']

flawless

word to describe tat pretty guy,

flawless.

word to describe the `ballet dancer`

flawless

word to describe how i walk back to class,

flawless

word to describe YOU

flawless

word to describe chezzy's hug,

flawless

word to describe my broken heart,

flawless

word to describe wifey's comfort

flawless

word to decribe Beib's joke,

flawless

word to describe Hanie,

flawless

word to describe me

flawless

word to describe today

flawless

everything seems to be flawless today~

include ur not brave

include my heartbroken

how can i throw tat flawless thingy away?

TELL ME HOW?

give u my heart, u push it away....

give her my heart, she say no thank

give to him, he throw it away~

LOL

baby ( dunno calling who again =.= let me crazy )

I LOVE YOU! ( everyone )

GUY U ARE FLAWLESS!!!

GIRL U ARE FLAWLESS!!!

maucks~~

[P.s. i can be very very brave and dare for you! Why u cant? :'( ]

Hahahax~

suddenly, my optimistic mode on again~
but my heart broken a little little bit...
seems like u doesn't trust me
argh~~~~
feel bad...
nevermind...
slowly,
slowly i'll success!!

greedy

come on!
dont be greedy~
dont grab things or people too fast,
haven u learnt ur lesson?

this feeling.. i cant say it out...
it's juz so confusing...
come on....
cant it be clear?
can anyone tell me how?
and i left myself at the cold and silent corner...
heartbleeding...
no one break it...
i break it myself...

what i want is juz simple...
caring and loving....
dont u noe?
:'(
i never need u to be prefect,
be good looking,
be humour,
be cool,
be cute,
or be anything...
 ijuz need ur caring and loving,
no matter boys or girls...
and i cherrish every of ur caring and loving...

PLEASE GOD,
i PRAY HARDLY,
what i want is juz a simply life,
an ordinary and simple one
can i be juz like YOU!
the one who smile everyday,
who is happy everyday,
who is never bothered by EMO,
i want to be another U!
i wan!!!!
can u teach me how?
:')
maybe u will,
it all depends,
depend on how is our future are written
and YOU,
you are the best gift ever from God,
God make us meet together,
God want me to be a simple person like you~
and u attract me.
and we became friends...
hope that we can be soul friends in future...
if i ever tell u my story,
can i know ur story too?
or u're juz simple with no story?
:')
impossible rite?
everyone have their own story,
u say u were once an egg,
hatched by ur mum.
hahahax~
and u have chicken cell...
and u say u learn to talk human language.
i asked, : i tot chicken speak like kok kok kei kok kok kei,
u said : is ji ji ji
i said : tat is chick lar!!
(hahahahaha)
i smiled =)
i DO I DID i REALLY SMILE!!!
when juz a lame conversation....
God just want u to make me happy, rite?

tat convo make me think of u too...
about the external and internal fertilisation....
u say there are eggs inside ur stomach,
and i say fried those eggs to eat...
=)

my life is mixed by past and now....
so complicated...
i want to be SIMPLE!!!
a sweet smile on my face...
hahahx~
dream dream dream~
maybe my dream will come true some day~~
=)

is you or me?

is you or me who treat tat as a game?
who care tat relationship and the feeling more?
who disappointed more?

:'(
and tears drop...
where are you when i'm sad....

who is here to wipe my tears away?

things change ok?
things DO CHANGE!

why i want to leave....
coz i dont wan to destroy ur image of my IMAGINATION!
i never know u well!
i NEVER!!!
U NEVER GIVE ME CHANCES!
AND NOW ARE YOU BLAMMING ME?
DO U EVER CARE BOUT MY FEELINGS?
did u ever noe how much tears drops juz becoz of a word?
did u ever know whatever is actually a very very hurting words...
and i ignore it...
did u know reply ppl `...` means tat u;re nt interested...
and it will definitely hurt the ppl who receive it...
DID YOU EVER CARE OF MY FEELING?

ok done....
i dont wan to angry anymore...
in my imagination...
u're juz prefect...
tat's juz what u want rite...
u ask me juz imagine how u r...
and now...
 i did it..

why should i treat u and i as a game?
WHY SHOULD I?!
:'(

come on...
dont be sad edwina....
=P be the cute girl ever....
:')

散场的拥抱

suddenly i'm in love with this song...
whenever i hear this song...i feel my heat is broking...
u said thanks for everything, i like the feeling..
i dont get wad u mean...
:'(
dont let a poor guesser guess...
tat will make them down down down down down....

now...
this is not wad i want...
fal to go against fate again...
why am i so useless?
why should i keep taing risk and challenge and i never success...
we one whole team...
we promise to work together but now...
only 2 of us success...
how :'(
i've lost my confidence to do my best...
without u guys...
i'm like fighting alone...
i hate you!!
the evil you!!!
u destroyed our plan!
i HATE YOU
HATE you!!!!!
sry guy....
sry i din make u success...
i'm really sorry...
i really dont know....really dont know how to fix this problem...
sry guy....
I"M SORRY...
i know there are no other chances anymore
SORRY....
i'm really guilty :'(

i've been arranging my thoughts and feelings...
i think.....
i juz have good impression of u
still,
i still dont assume tat i like you
we're still juz ordinary friend i guess...
hope we can be bf ( best freind ) next time!! :D
i kinda like ur style =D

terry was right....
this complicated life will push u from a pure thinking child to a mature adult...
i've been force to be mature...
oh well,
it's time for me to raise my eq...
i noe i owes take things too seriously!

baby~(dont know calling who, perhaps it's you who is reading my blog)
thanks for supporting me!

cheeer up and say
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA =)
go crazy~ ^^

And I

And I regret~
i DO regret...
sorry for the foolish act!
i know,
the problem half of is caused by me!
sorry~~~~~
i never think tat this can break the tradision
and this physical year,
will be a very tough one~
VERY VERY TOUGH ONE!
well, i dun trust myself,
then how  can i trust u?
LOL

And I cried...
creid so deeply in front a friend~
i never did tat..
never never never!!
cry over the scar of my unhappy childhood

And I started to hate,
why life keep let me see things so clearly whereas other dont..
tat only make me suffer more...
the more i know bout wat's LIFE,
the more i suffer,
the more i become sad...
the more i scare,
the more i disappoint,
why cant LIFE be juz as pure as a new born baby?
well, if u ever ask,
wat's the most poisonous thing in this whole universal,
let me tell u the answer,
i'm sure u wont have any objection!
HUMAN!!
HUMAn is the most destructive and poisonous plus dangerous things ever appear in this world,
i hate being a human,
why dont juz let be a cell,
a hydra?
a paramecium?
but not a complex human with brain!
wat if i'm juz a red blood cell,
i juz operate things correctly,
no brain,
no nuclues...

And I'm different,
not like the past...
i lost someone who can hear all my sadness and fear when i cry,
yes....
i din find u anymore...
kinda sad rite?
u supose to be the one who lend me ur ears...
and now,
this situation will never appear rite?

And I'm happy,
i've got lots of big sister and brothers suddenly~
and you guys made me smile!
Oh yeah~ love you guys! =)
thx for saying me cute~
thx for asking me to promise not to cry anymore,
thx for offer me to help solve my phobia,
and thx for bringing me for a walk,
thx for telling me many many 道理,
thx for singing me tat song and lend ur shirt for me to wipe my tears,
thx for hiding inside the toilet with me and hear my story,
thx for hugging me when u saw me cry,
thx for everything!!!
i love you all,
if all the past memories is juz a fake one, juz a illusion,
i believe this time,
it's the real one!
and it warmth my heart!!
seriously, no doubt,
i love you guys!!
big bro and big sis!! :'(
u touch my heart and heal my pain...

And I want to cherish u~
U!
i know~
we're still dunno both of us well...
i hope...
we can be better after knowing each other more...
i do cherrish u as i look at ur smile,
i smile too,
when i receive ur msg,
i smiled....
watevr u say,
 i try to figure it and accept it...
u're right,
take things easy
and be happy
=]

And I'm here loitering...
=]

And I think i miss u...
feel so weird...
past few days....
u;re still my `soul friend` and now?
hahahax
there's too much changes in life!

And I think.
i juz have to stay happy,
i learnt to smile~
so i have to smile to the end of my life~

And I do love u so my parents~

And I love u too blog!
=]

And I try to act i dunno anything~
And I'll try to forget how disappointed i am...
THIS IS LIFE!!!!
I'M BREATHING IN THIS SECOND AND THE NEXT SECOND!
FATE,
THIS IS FATE...
A FATE TAT IS UNCHANGED
juz accpet it though it contain lots of challenge~~

at least i got you, you, you and YOU!!!
so juz cheer? XP

hahax