And I

And I regret~
i DO regret...
sorry for the foolish act!
i know,
the problem half of is caused by me!
sorry~~~~~
i never think tat this can break the tradision
and this physical year,
will be a very tough one~
VERY VERY TOUGH ONE!
well, i dun trust myself,
then how  can i trust u?
LOL

And I cried...
creid so deeply in front a friend~
i never did tat..
never never never!!
cry over the scar of my unhappy childhood

And I started to hate,
why life keep let me see things so clearly whereas other dont..
tat only make me suffer more...
the more i know bout wat's LIFE,
the more i suffer,
the more i become sad...
the more i scare,
the more i disappoint,
why cant LIFE be juz as pure as a new born baby?
well, if u ever ask,
wat's the most poisonous thing in this whole universal,
let me tell u the answer,
i'm sure u wont have any objection!
HUMAN!!
HUMAn is the most destructive and poisonous plus dangerous things ever appear in this world,
i hate being a human,
why dont juz let be a cell,
a hydra?
a paramecium?
but not a complex human with brain!
wat if i'm juz a red blood cell,
i juz operate things correctly,
no brain,
no nuclues...

And I'm different,
not like the past...
i lost someone who can hear all my sadness and fear when i cry,
yes....
i din find u anymore...
kinda sad rite?
u supose to be the one who lend me ur ears...
and now,
this situation will never appear rite?

And I'm happy,
i've got lots of big sister and brothers suddenly~
and you guys made me smile!
Oh yeah~ love you guys! =)
thx for saying me cute~
thx for asking me to promise not to cry anymore,
thx for offer me to help solve my phobia,
and thx for bringing me for a walk,
thx for telling me many many 道理,
thx for singing me tat song and lend ur shirt for me to wipe my tears,
thx for hiding inside the toilet with me and hear my story,
thx for hugging me when u saw me cry,
thx for everything!!!
i love you all,
if all the past memories is juz a fake one, juz a illusion,
i believe this time,
it's the real one!
and it warmth my heart!!
seriously, no doubt,
i love you guys!!
big bro and big sis!! :'(
u touch my heart and heal my pain...

And I want to cherish u~
U!
i know~
we're still dunno both of us well...
i hope...
we can be better after knowing each other more...
i do cherrish u as i look at ur smile,
i smile too,
when i receive ur msg,
i smiled....
watevr u say,
 i try to figure it and accept it...
u're right,
take things easy
and be happy
=]

And I'm here loitering...
=]

And I think i miss u...
feel so weird...
past few days....
u;re still my `soul friend` and now?
hahahax
there's too much changes in life!

And I think.
i juz have to stay happy,
i learnt to smile~
so i have to smile to the end of my life~

And I do love u so my parents~

And I love u too blog!
=]

And I try to act i dunno anything~
And I'll try to forget how disappointed i am...
THIS IS LIFE!!!!
I'M BREATHING IN THIS SECOND AND THE NEXT SECOND!
FATE,
THIS IS FATE...
A FATE TAT IS UNCHANGED
juz accpet it though it contain lots of challenge~~

at least i got you, you, you and YOU!!!
so juz cheer? XP

hahax