front or back?

我找不到什么东西来麻痹自己
我想我也不需要
头已经痛一整天了
够麻痹自己了吧？

i lost myself....
:')
yes i did...

but i'm learning,
and trying my best to find myself back...

no matter how....
i still need to choose,
go front or back?
:')
it tired me...
this question juz pop out whenever i suffer with tat stupid headache...
my imaginary world is no longer useful for me...

i NEED love badly....
if not i'll keep hurting myself to paralyze myself...

fro or back....
shiranai....
shikatana...
watashi honto wa baka....
=)
ganbaru....
^^