last post =)

this should be my last post.
this blog have lost its meaning.
what for to stay here and suffer for those fake good memories
u didnt even think tat u're wrong for using me as a `teacher`s kid
u bullshitty!
oh well...
maybe i'm that bullshity instead
who ask me to be useless till i only have the value of `teacher's kid
i'm useless,
i make u suffer,
coz i'm better than u..
oh well,
actually i'm not.

i called myself idiot,
and i called u stupid.

to the girl tat used me :
hey u stupid,
u tot everyone is born to know how to communicate with parents?
bullshit!
u gotta learn!
LEARN!
LEARN!
LEARN!
u tot i'm really so good with my mum meh?
u dun even know i ever hate my mum until one month i din talk to her
we only fight and hit each other!
worst than u and ur mum!
u dun even know i'll scream at my mum and i say i hate her forever becoz i'm born as a teacher's kid and everyone USED me.
i'm not treated as a normal person!
i'm owes a teacher's kid!
u this stupid rascal!
u dun even know how bliss u are!
ur mum only paksa u to study and din give u freedom
how bout me?
not my mum paksa me to study hard
is everyone
EVERYONE is looking at this TEACHER'S KID u know!
they'll laugh at me if i fall,
u tot my mum give me freedom is enough meh?
everytime i go out in public place
i owes need to remember
i'm a TEACHER's KID
I NEED TO BE GOOD
cannot enjoy and be as crazy i want
coz i'm a TEACHER's KID
dont think only u suffer,
coz tat is a bullshit!
if u wan compare stress.
i got definitely more than u!
u loser!
go LEARN and communicate with ur mum lah
so hard meh?
ur mum LOVES u,
wad i see is juz u 不领情 and hurt her!
u're so cold towards ur mum,
do u know tat will make ur mum really sad or not?
she is scared of u too!
she dun even noe what should she do to.
u imagine if ur mum know u lied her for so many times before,
how sad will she be?
I know it's hard to break the wall between u and her,
who knows actually ur mum is juz waiting for u
care her,
hold her hand and tell her u love her,
it's not disgusting,
maybe will be embarassing at 1st,
but u know how much happiness could this bring to ur mum?
u ever think in ur mum's place?
HAVE YOU EVER?
NO!
u're selfish and horrible!
u only wan freedom freedom freedom?
how old are u missy,
when u're 18 u wan how many freedom u got how many,
15 is not a time for u to go crazy and enjoy.
well,
i have no right to say this though,
i'm still learning to make my relationship with mummy better.

if u ever treat me as ur friend,
i beg u dont use me anymore,
learn to communicate with ur mum.
introduce ur friends to ur mum and say :
"mummy there are my besties, they are much much more better than tian rong"
tat's all u should do..
ur mummy doesn't trust u because u doesn't trust urself too,
if not u'll not owes use me

not much to say...
i know my words is hurt,
but u deserve it.

good luck in everything
jia you,
and farewell.