last post =)

this should be my last post.
this blog have lost its meaning.
what for to stay here and suffer for those fake good memories
u didnt even think tat u're wrong for using me as a `teacher`s kid
u bullshitty!
oh well...
maybe i'm that bullshity instead
who ask me to be useless till i only have the value of `teacher's kid
i'm useless,
i make u suffer,
coz i'm better than u..
oh well,
actually i'm not.

i called myself idiot,
and i called u stupid.

to the girl tat used me :
hey u stupid,
u tot everyone is born to know how to communicate with parents?
bullshit!
u gotta learn!
LEARN!
LEARN!
LEARN!
u tot i'm really so good with my mum meh?
u dun even know i ever hate my mum until one month i din talk to her
we only fight and hit each other!
worst than u and ur mum!
u dun even know i'll scream at my mum and i say i hate her forever becoz i'm born as a teacher's kid and everyone USED me.
i'm not treated as a normal person!
i'm owes a teacher's kid!
u this stupid rascal!
u dun even know how bliss u are!
ur mum only paksa u to study and din give u freedom
how bout me?
not my mum paksa me to study hard
is everyone
EVERYONE is looking at this TEACHER'S KID u know!
they'll laugh at me if i fall,
u tot my mum give me freedom is enough meh?
everytime i go out in public place
i owes need to remember
i'm a TEACHER's KID
I NEED TO BE GOOD
cannot enjoy and be as crazy i want
coz i'm a TEACHER's KID
dont think only u suffer,
coz tat is a bullshit!
if u wan compare stress.
i got definitely more than u!
u loser!
go LEARN and communicate with ur mum lah
so hard meh?
ur mum LOVES u,
wad i see is juz u 不领情 and hurt her!
u're so cold towards ur mum,
do u know tat will make ur mum really sad or not?
she is scared of u too!
she dun even noe what should she do to.
u imagine if ur mum know u lied her for so many times before,
how sad will she be?
I know it's hard to break the wall between u and her,
who knows actually ur mum is juz waiting for u
care her,
hold her hand and tell her u love her,
it's not disgusting,
maybe will be embarassing at 1st,
but u know how much happiness could this bring to ur mum?
u ever think in ur mum's place?
HAVE YOU EVER?
NO!
u're selfish and horrible!
u only wan freedom freedom freedom?
how old are u missy,
when u're 18 u wan how many freedom u got how many,
15 is not a time for u to go crazy and enjoy.
well,
i have no right to say this though,
i'm still learning to make my relationship with mummy better.

if u ever treat me as ur friend,
i beg u dont use me anymore,
learn to communicate with ur mum.
introduce ur friends to ur mum and say :
"mummy there are my besties, they are much much more better than tian rong"
tat's all u should do..
ur mummy doesn't trust u because u doesn't trust urself too,
if not u'll not owes use me

not much to say...
i know my words is hurt,
but u deserve it.

good luck in everything
jia you,
and farewell.

rain falls rain stops

`and the rain started to fall`

`fall from my eyes`

`tears blur my vision`

`i'm lost in no way`

`i juz dont get it`

-I'm getting tired of being betrayed-

-Have you gotten tired with me too-

-Why i juz cant forget all your good-

-You gave me your hand-

-Pull a fallen me up-

-Gave me a smile and say we will always be together-

-i juz cant forget your promise-

-Promise u will treat me better then them-

-But why, now u hurt me more-

-And this promise make me suffer-

*I hate to lie*

*You know tat rite?*

*Why keep ask me to lie*

*it hurt!*

*it really hurt!*

*Well, not ur fault*

*But mine* 

··I'm kinda determine now··

··I have to find a reason to go··

··And i found it··

··i wont be saying u betrayed me··

··Let me say,··

··I betrayed you··

··I want to be bad··

+maybe i really have to be strong this time+

+maybe i relaly have to go+

+wearing a pair of shoes tat doesn't fit me+

+make my legs pain only+

+but this pair of shoes are my best one+

+can i relaly throw it away?+

:'(

i showered myself in the bath of my tears

i hear my heart say,

i'm pain and hurt

why holding a sharp blade tightly

didn't you see ur blood ur dripping?

before i let go my hand

i can feel the pain already...

#darlings#

#I do love you all#

#too much#

#i know you love me too#

#but you love urself more#

#u love guys more#

#u love the other more#

#much much mroe than me#

#coz i'm a dumb#

#a stupid#

#which doesn't suit you#

#make u suffer#

#ruin ur mood#

#sorry#

#this wont happen next time#

#coz this is the last time i hurt u#

Can i betray you?

...

i look up

the last drop of rain

drop on the computer table

i found my way,

to go...

and the rain

stop

please....

please lah~
be brave ok?
BE BRAVE! @.@
B-R-A-V-E....
duh...
i lose...
still.....
i'm dumb!
T^T
noooo.....

anyway,
yesterday,
have a quite nice day...
but something juz ruin my mood....
my faith....
can u please at least respect me a little more?
@.@
watever....

i feel quite disappointed tat my friends broke our promise...
:'(
i got many reason i dont wan to go to k box..
did u forget?
my ear will pain if i hear loud voices....
SEE
the best reason...
but still....

lucky my daughters and friend got go to...
spend a good time chit chat at food court...
they're super duper OMG C-U-T-E!
muahahaha KISS

ok gotta go school le~~~
cya!

why so cruel?

why so cruel?
all my dream faded away...
oh well...
who cares anyway?
I CARE!!!!
T^T

....
seriously want to cry...
i feel too empty!
damn!
i
better
go
sleep
and
cry
out
loud!
:'(

sad

：“如果我现在不说，以后就没有机会了！”
坚决的口气 ：“有一天我一定会听你说”

不可能的事情

遗憾
你可以不要出现在我的人生吗？
我讨厌你
我就是喜欢完美
讨厌遗憾
讨厌缺憾。

错过了
或许就是错过了
我放开了
应该是吧
没感觉了
麻痹了

：“我现在背负着许多人的使命，没空陪你再继续做梦”

做梦
有什么不好呢？
为什么不选择相信我呢？
:')

ja....

I wan long piak!!

seriously,
i wanna cry liao!
my maths....
1st question wrong liao bah...
@.@
sign sign sign...
:')
my science paper1...
didnt reach my target...
sad dao....
my bc got 1 wrong liao!
grrrrr....
my BM worst...
correct less than 25...
i wan long piak liao....

tomorrow test PM --- definisi need hafal till siao!
PJK --- very weak subject
PK damn... i juz finish form 1 nia! @.@

ok good luck!

i saw my rainbow after the rain pours

and i stop wandering around...
stop `bully` myself...
i stop being revengeful,
in fact,
i start to accept the `fact`

BUT
in fact,

i still want to be myself,
there's nothing bad
i juz love the way i am...

yes,,
although keep bullied by people,
at least i still love myself,

yes,
although ppl wont appreciate me,
so what,
i appreciate myself...

dont pressure me anymore,
dont tell me that world is complicated,
let me discover it myself ok?

i know u scare me to fall and get hurt,
but u only let me suffer more now,
please let myself to experience those bad things u said,
and let me crawl and stand up myself.

dont push me too high,
tat will make me feel sick,
mental sick...

just let me be myself,
if i get hurt,
just see me cry,
i'll get stronger each time.
the facts u told me wont help me...
coz i can never understand tat...

i'm still 15,
not 25...
let me live my teenage life,
with my imaginary world,
love everywhere and everyone is kind...
dont ruin my fantasy =)

let me be childish,
i love crying =]

hitotsu mo fantasy

addicted with a song,
ai no uta by every little thing
it's inuyasha's theme song...
well,
inuyasha is my another fantasy too =]
kikyo, inuyasha, kagome,....
many many more... =)

wil rewatch inuyasha agn after PMR =)
teehee=)
aishiteru,
nipon no mangga!
weeeee... =)

mangga wa daisuki!!!
muacks!!

plang~

watashi no fantasy wa.... kieru desu...
:')
doushio
kono sekai no ai wa doko?
kowai desu...
naze...
naze kono sekai wa fukuzatsu desu....
hahax
my heart break......

=) hope (=

life is full with hope
i guess....

than i shall pray,
i want everything to be ok =)

our eccentric class hold an eccentric party for cikgu Helen =)
FUN!!
although a stupid teacher tried to emnghalang us..
well,
dont care bout him....
he's juz....
NOTHING =)

Happy teacher's day!

we replace good morning teacher with ----> Happy teacher's day!
wootsza!! ♥♥♥
eccentric people!
love them all teehee=)

2moro is test...
i still left several LONG bab for SEJ...
:'(
juz try my best! =)

miracle miracle please come to me!
Teehee=)

good luck all! ^.^

front or back?

我找不到什么东西来麻痹自己
我想我也不需要
头已经痛一整天了
够麻痹自己了吧？

i lost myself....
:')
yes i did...

but i'm learning,
and trying my best to find myself back...

no matter how....
i still need to choose,
go front or back?
:')
it tired me...
this question juz pop out whenever i suffer with tat stupid headache...
my imaginary world is no longer useful for me...

i NEED love badly....
if not i'll keep hurting myself to paralyze myself...

fro or back....
shiranai....
shikatana...
watashi honto wa baka....
=)
ganbaru....
^^

Every Little Thing - 愛の謳

i'm touch with this song...
nice, touchy and peaceful...
here the chinese lyric go :
`给这片土地力量

给原野花朵 给心灵一份爱... 

来吧 将耳朵贴近倾听那生命的骚动 
是的 我还记得 自己曾被包容在那温暖的心跳中 

别人的声音 旁人的伤痛 我假装没听到 
不要被这张丑陋的脸孔所蒙蔽 
现在立刻 生活在爱中 

诞生在这个世界上 
在你的眼中 
究竟看到了什麼 
此刻 给这片土地力量 
给原野花朵 
给心灵一份爱... 

虽不知该如何治愈这双受伤的翅膀 
我们还是必须不断的走 而且 背负这对翅膀 
无论在怎样的时代 在怎样的场所 确实都有爱在其中 
所以说你不用害怕颤抖 也毋须叹息难过 
来走向爱中 
微温的风 
拍打著我 
我又留下了什麼 
此刻 给这片土地力量 
给原野花朵 
给心灵一份爱... 

然后 
别人的声音 旁人的伤痛 我假装没听到 
不要被这张丑陋的脸孔所蒙蔽 
现在立刻 生活在爱中 

诞生在这个世界上 
在你的眼中 
究竟看到了什麼 
微温的风 
拍打著我 
我又留下了什麼 
此刻 给这片土地力量 
给原野花朵 
给心灵一份爱...`

it kinda heal me though.... i love it...

fall for it for the 1st time i listen to this...

booo!

nth special....
as usual....
feel scared to go norma...
well....
dunno is good news or not...

....
complicated...

very sad day

today,
my two coccon change into two black with milky poka dots' butterfly..
i was so happy and joy,
not until mummy told me a tragic truth.....
my tears straight away roll down..
laz friday de butterfly...
actually is dead!!!
:'( :'( :'( :'(
died half way coming out!
ARGH!!!!!!!
sad...
no mood...
sick agn...
my head very blur....
RIP......

guilty!!!
T^T
forgive me!!! :'(

cry loud loud

today omost pengsan... damn ear and nose
why i need to suffer like this? :'(
and the worst is,
my doctor is not around!!
only can meet him at monday afternoon :'(
cry even louder!!
haiz haiz...

still,
still addicted with tat song 对不起
not me zi lian..
i find tat me and wang zi got one similarity....
唱歌时有严重的气音....
=.=|||
his voice ok lah.. mine is like.. worst... =.="
some of tat song mv is like all his picture...
and i recall back my sweetest pri 6 memory...

awww.
tat time...
we're all crazy with lollipop,
sing their songs everyday,
we know all their real full name,
their height their weight,
their favourite,
and see all of their youtube video,
get to know all their latest info,
watch all their drama or movie,
YES,
i have been crazy for celeb b4,
oh yeah... past time,
not so crazy lately,
coz in my heart....
only got lollipop,
now this group broke,
sad to the max...
and i dun chase any celeb anymore...
say till lollipop,
i juz think of heigirls,
like them too...
they broke also... :'(
my fantasy ar!!!
my fairytale ar!!!
all gone liao teehee :')

why they're so special in my heart...
tat is becoz,
i got inspirated by them
a watch a drama name black sugar macchiato,
i like the girl ya tou very much in tat drama,
so caring, kind and nice.
and i feel like i wanna be her,
and i start changing my attitude,
even my friends were shocked with my changes,
PROUD ya！
besides,
whenever i fall, whenever i'm down and lost my confident,
lollipop's song juz cheer me up agn,
most of their lyrics is like
very motivative and nice~!

lollipop...
my best idol ever... :')

********************************************************************************

好挣扎...
我不懂我该进还是退~
好累...
我不想再猜
我把一切交给时间

时间它会告诉我该怎么做
我不要在想了
想也没有用
深呼吸...
=)

='(

心在这一分钟
这一刻
碎掉了...
我不知道我能撑多久。
第一次认真，
拿出我的真心，
却太晚了吗？

久违的眼泪...
你要来拜访了吗？

心好痛...
我知道你比我还痛...

='(

你到底，
在想什么...
为什么，
说那些话...

我很痛苦
我知道你比我更痛苦
把话说明白
或许这才是你最需要的
告诉我你在想什么好吗？

就算你要放弃
真的要放手
就算你选择离开
我都无所谓
我只想知道你的选择
不要让我猜好吗。

好痛...
:'(

我要的只是简简单单的，
不要复杂化，
我不要...
:'(

对不起 -- 王子

多久了沒有你的消息 上一封簡訊是星期幾

又錯過了與你的約定 對不起真的不是故意

有時候沒辦法陪著你 你總是對我說沒關係

放不下我對妳的任性 對不起不該讓你傷心

有時候 你會讓讓我 儘管我大男人發作

有時候 你會裝作不懂 默默地 留一些空間給我

這些事情 其實 我一直都藏在心裡

請你原諒我不懂逗你開心 請你原諒我不懂聽你的心

回想這過去 我學著讓你更安心

別賭氣別任性別放棄 說聲對不起

請你相信我我會更加珍惜 請你相信我我會呵護著你

小小的愛情 卻是我最大的幸運

疼愛的 想念的都是妳

請你相信 一個這樣的我

請原諒我 對不起 對不起

****************************************************

对不起，

只想跟你说声对不起...

好想唱这首歌给你听

偏偏...

我又没有声音...

对不起，

如果真的没有办法原谅我

你可以说...

忽冷忽热，

会让我更受伤。

这首歌

好适合我

全都是

我想说给你听的

对不起.... :'(

extraordinary experience

heyo!
guess wat
our school got one bilik rehat,
with two soft, nice and comfortable beds!
and i slept there today!
weeeee!!!
hahahx
so nice ar~~

sick sick sick...
sick till wan asthma agn..
wat the...
=.=
dun so sick lah ya!
i wan prepare for exam ar!
keep eating medicine make my brain blank nia!

ganbare ganbare!!!
woots...
i admit i got short circuit agn after doing maths for more than 1 hour and more 100 questions one go!
TEEHEE=)
lalalala~
@.@

so disappointed today...
my friends are like lazy get my bottle...
i juz feel better nia...
wan walk so long way to get my bottle...
laz time still say ur friend din help u when u're in an urgent...
how bout urself??
zzz....


swtz...
today have a quite nice time with yee hui,
a girl who keep asking me to praise her and say tat she's cool...
=.=
i know u very COOL lah~
dun kek me mah~
still suan me gok...
hahax~

ok... end here
nitez o~~~ =)

COUGH COUGh COUGH!

i feel cool now...
my sickness finally omost go away liao..
heard ur voice and i straight become better,
see, u so li hai de! XD

COUGH COUGH COUGH!!!
=.=v
i go rest liao bb~

phew-you-wit

i currently admiring a girl who is too cool for me!
Awww... i love you girl! ♥♥♥
If i'm like you,
maybe i wont do those childish idiot things lor...
:'(
why i juz never never never never like you...
seriously hating myself...
rite now! boo~

i heard a very meaningful words from my dear friend,
ILY....
well...
this word can have 2 totally different meaning...
well...
how bout me...
which meaning suits me more :')
tada~~

haiz..
sick till like this...
maybe i really have short life ar
T^T
suffering like this,
like my body isn't mine,
i went to meet doctor,
and he say my life still left one month O.O
(chill, juz my own imaginary =.=v)
what will i want to do o?
i wan throw all my texbooks away.
i wan use all my money and go travel,
and of coz i wan learn japanese and go JAPAN woohoo!
(still dreaming.... =.=v)
my life left a month time,
what will u want to do with me?
what words u want to say?
ILY?
(well... still dreaming. u can ignore me... fever till brain sort liao~)
i feel like dying these days...
without voice,
life sucks to the max...
GROAN!!!!

i need u rite now...
where are you? :')
maybe i should juz go back to bed... :')
:')
:')
:')
dont ignore me lah,
sick ppl need ppl to accompany...
teehee=)
maybe i'll recover faster if u accompany me! XD
( really.... i'm a dreamer... forgive me, i'm sick :'))

i wonder if i tell teacher tomorrow like this, what is their respond :
"teacher i'm sick whole day yesterday,
i lie on my bed, half dead,so i din do my homeowrk,
sry can i pass up tomorrow :')"

will teacher believe me? ><
waiting to die...
i need to go to bed now..
if not i really will left one month time... =.=v
not joking.. i'm toooooo sick :')

Unlucky~

congratz~!
nana sick agn...
zzz

uncomfortable...
no heart do anything...
T^T

sad sad sad
charm charm charm...
:'( :'( :'(

duh... go do homework liao...
T^T

waiting~

waiting so long...
juz to see my cattterpillar --> coccon --> butterfly,
but it played me..
 till now haven become butterfly ar..
:'( sad si!

and now waiting for u to sing...
but u disappear agn...
:')

ate ice-cream with my chezzy mami~
nice lah~
XD
thoat no voice ki...
juz remember tat my ear got infection agn ( maybe, so painful..)

sleep early tongiht ba,
dont think negatively when u dont reply...
=')

i like you much much =)
juz remember to sing another day~
wink wink*
^^

``dont stop loving``
wifey told me this quite a time ago...
i still rmb it~
i wont give up,
unless....
i have to =)

nitez~
=)
ear painful... T^T
i pray for love~
=P
the warmest thing in this world~
L-O-V-E
with my sweetest smile~

juz like a dream~

i sat with my ex 同桌 today~

feel nice...

straight lean on her shoulder!

aww... miss this scent! :)

then i sit with my form1 同桌

hahax

she din chage much in fact...

start missing someone..

hehe...

gone crazy i guess...

i wanna hear ur voice seriosuly.

juz like a dream,

without u in my sight...

=')

juz like a dream,

going backwards is kinda nice,

how long could this situation go on?

eien?

i pray =)

for love is always the warmest things in this world,

love my families and friends~

muacks

Home Sweet Home ♥ ♥ ♥

this song is pretty nice~

a nice lyric too =)

`getting tired of walking, the rain that began to fall
I chase after the rabbit I couldn't catch
your eyes are like the clear water
breathing deep down in the ocean
call me, call me, I'm here
where can I go, to where, so that I'm satisfied?

let's go home, when tomorrow comes
will I be laughing saying that it's all ok?
call my name, call me, I'll embrace you
so close your eyes and remember those innocent times

you filled the parts I lacked in
because I was able to forget even sad feelings
I'm not afraid

lying, and regretting that
I became an adult someday
getting humiliated, sweating
but the reason for me to continue dancing
is burning, burning my soul and screams
if I continue, continue to open it I can be saved

let's go home, let's meet
behind the moon, white rabbit
let's return, when tomorrow comes
I'll be laughing barefeet
I'll call, call and embrace it
so close your eyes and remember those innocent times

getting tired of walking, the rain that began to fall
I chase after the rabbit I couldn't catch
your eyes are like the clear water
breathing deep down in the ocean
call my name, call me because I'm here
if I tell, tell my heart I'll be fulfilled `




never did i realise,
u're the home i always want to be inside =)

weird atmosphere

a weird atmosphere around me...
sometime you're just near,
but sometime u seems like so far away...
and i get closer with them,
u guys stick me agn..
LOLx....

piano ar.... T^T
why so unstable one!
sometime play very well, sometime juz get lost suddenly...
gosh...

my time...
so occupied,
doing things in every single second,
too precious and i dont wanna waste it...
=3=
and tat my head feel so full..
i almost fall asleep while walking back to home,
luckily no car accident..
really dangerous ar!
straight throw myself on bed after eat and bath..

i love music...
teehee=)
if i die young...
such a nice emo song!

love make us suffer though...
dont be sad if u fell through it...
be strong...
coz u'll find ur right person someday..
=)
i pray...

215th post

it's my 215th post...

hey buddies...
if i die young?
can do me some stuff?
:')

don't cry...
i wont be please if u do so...
send me flowers...
all kinds...
sing for me....
any songs...

if i die young...
will u regret to say we dont left much time to spend..
will u regret for ignoring me?
:')

i'm so scared since yesterday...
u let me cry in bed whole night till i fall asleep...
why?
u let me to close my eyes and prevent tears to drop in school...
why?
u ignored me...
why?
i tot we're ok?

and now....
i started to feel down agn...
why?

if i die young....
this song kinda suits me...

if i die young -- Sam Tsui...
why is his sound so touchy...

heart break silently...
life is short..
let the pass be the pass....
=')

if i die young...
down to the max..
baby..
i need ur love

Happy and sad

我像是走在钢索上

身体稍稍倾左

心情突然大好

可又走了几步

身体又向右倾

又emo了。。。

=’）

my phone is so silently since i accidentally fall asleep laz night

have u remember to update ur blog?

sometime i think,

maybe i have no regret anymore?

:')

i've done things that we should have do but never do before...

i changed....

yet...

this is still me...

so not use with it...

happy and sad...

i choose to stand at the middle...

it suffer..

but this is wad life is..

:')

wait wait wait

woah~~~
need to be so patient ar!!!!
WAIT....
time flies...
=')

emo a while
find kor kor chat...
he kek me... @.@
is weird so...
whenever chat with him...
he juz make me think of...
be happy,
this world is simple...
dont get down.
btw, thx kor kor for me to test my ring tone...
nice to the max...
reply my msg is making Nana happy coz she like her ring tone much much..
teehee =P

i try to smile...
love is happy
hehe
take things easy...
tat's wat i learnt
^^

nine minutes ♥

juz nine minutes....
and i'm so bliss

i fall for ur cute sound,
and i was like...
enjoying at the sofa there...
=>

i seriously like ur voices~
let me hear~
whenever i feel like
okay?
=)

first time calling u were last night~
and we ended our conversation juz for a few seconds i suppose... ♥
juz a `goodnight` u make my night

today...
a month already....
=)
nevermind....
u're still with me... isn't?
i'm not alone though.. =)

=)
guy,
seriously,
i fall for you... =)

see my post full of smiley face...
u gave me happiness...
^^

累

最近很累
永远都睡不够
晚上睡着了又做梦
搞不好还一边做梦一边心痛
梦到的都是
暂时还做不到的事情...

不哭了
朋友说哭对眼睛不好

忍住没有哭
谢谢你
Julia ♥
u gave me a nice time...
on phone till earache~~
argh~~
hahax nevermind.. i love you!

shocking news...
i got dilema now...
should i tell, or not tell...
if i tell.. 3 ppl get hurt... ( maybe 2 only, or maybe 1)
if i dont tell,
still everything will happen one day...
hahax
ok lah~
dont wan tell liao~
muahahahaha~
coz i gone insane...
O.O
oops...

i'm called a nerd...
well... i'm owes lidat....
hahax
do i really have to chg?
nah?
fasion girl is not really my style...
=3=
at least not now i guess...
Julia....
wait slow slow o..
i'll chg slowly,
bit by bit~
hehehe~ =)

I like you! seriously...
=)

if only the day tat julia imagine would come...
it'll be great!
super duper nice to the max X)

i called a timid....
:')
I AM
hahax

tired...
i want to sleep...
but i still got lots of work~!
hahax

=)
sweetest smile for u julia~
and YOU!

一半 -- 丁当

喝酒的伴
一起看电影的伴
早午晚餐的那个伴
朋友不能留得太晚
明天要上班
唱k的伴
一起去旅行的伴
听懂我的笑话的伴
我的生活 
只差那个人就美满

快乐剩一人分享
快乐就只剩一半
喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单 这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
噢吼~~
没人分享
幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填满
节日却提醒我孤单
没有想法
有想法又能怎样
只能写部落格整晚
几个留言安慰不了
心里的遗憾
没有负担原来也是种负担
自由多得让人心慌
你羡慕我
那要不要跟我交换
快乐剩一人分享
幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子都填满
别来提醒 我的孤单
*******************************************************************************
在脑海中来回转动的旋律
原来是这首歌....
眼泪不争气地掉了
当和我两个`特别`的朋友谈天
话题围绕着他
我愣住了
当我朋友说
：‘你喜欢他什么，他有什么好’
我心想
他...其实比任何人都关心我 （我觉得）
他教会我很多
教会我什么是爱
我曾误入歧途
是他把我带走
我失去信心的时候
他会帮我把它找回来
他会跟我说晚安
就算我们吵架的时候
虽然
你有时候
很不主动
有时候也冷冷的
或许会说一些莫名其妙的话
让我很担心
在打这个部落格的时候
我才发现到
你对我的好我都记得很清楚
不好的
要想好久好久才想得到
谢谢你
对于我的不成熟
一次又一次的原谅
再过几天
我们就分开一个月了
这一整个月
我变了好多
潜意识中
我是在为你做改变
如果还有机会
你还愿意当我的另一半的话
那多好
=)

我...

我...
失望到很想放弃
想冷落我就说一声
我不介意！
我可以找别人
算了
以后我自动siam!
不用看你的脸色
不用听你讽刺我的话
不用在那边伤心
不相信我就算了
那以后我什么话都不要主动说了...

以为可以一直一直走下去的希望
又破掉一个了吗？

麻木了
原来我们的友情
这么 cheap...

看破了
不再期待
不再心痛
收拾心情

出发！

真心话 ♥

你是我的真心话

真心话需要勇气

所以我选择大冒险

骗得过所有人

却骗不了自己

太多藏在心里的话

一时之间

说也说不完...

说了

请相信我...

我真的好像叫你

宝贝

你知道吗？

and my dream

i had a dream...
sweet when i'm still dreaming,
turn bad when i wake and remember the truth...
u are no longer with me...
u have not been in my dream for some days already coz i tot u're forgotten...
but no...

i still got lots of dreams in you...
i know nothing about future...
i'm juz a dreamer...
a stupid girl...
who never know what's love
and break the relationship herself with regrets
for her first love...

there's too many memories between us..
i've been traped in those olden days...
if i'm not so 冲动
will there be any difference?
i changed a lot for you...
but i change more and more when u left...
and i started missing you...
well, i guess you'll never know unless u still loiter around my blog...

and my dream...
it never stop either...
i still cnt stop loving u...
although it's juz a dream...
ans i still dream tat there's still miracle.....

i'm juz a dreamer...
and my dream.....
it had never stop...
my tears stop,
but my love never stop....
:')

忘了...

忘记
我做不到
过去的事情
还一直在脑海里
超级好的记忆
也有缺点啊！

i ask myself~ (An old post tat i forget to publish... LOLx..)

i ask myself~
what did i get though...
did my sky turn bluer
did my sky become more wide?
are there still any happy bird flying at my sky?
:)
if i leap up high,
can i touch my sky with my hands?
have u remember those forgotten dream?
:')
those day dreams,
will they still come true?
I always assume that we can be together very very long...
and maybe hold hands one day....
but those sweet times faded away already...
how can those dream still come true?

so i ask myself again,
did u regret?
is there anything else u haven do?
any words u haven say?

honestly,
i have nothing nostalgic,
i decided to leave with no regrets...
and i think tat i already do my best by putting all of my afford...
but it seems like useles...
nothing change,
not even a single cell....
nothing for me to say....
maybe we are juz not the right one...
thanks tat u taught me
how to LOVE
how to CRY
how to GIVE
how to TOLERATE
the feeling of being needed is really nice...
u're the 1st person who gave me this feeling...
u taught me tat this world can never be pure and simple...
u taught to bully back and dont juz swallow my tears once again...
u told me nothing is perfect...
and i really understand now...
even love is not perfect....
can u teach me how to live without my past?
=')

********************************************************************

when i was with you,
i suddenly i can understand his feeling...
why he ever said tat he feel tired coz he missed me too much..
why he hate me forget to reply his msg,
fall asleep while sms-ing....
this relaly can crake our friendship,
since i've been so keen to you
this new friend,
can u please appreciate me a little more?

lonely... so what?

i tried to jump out from my small circle...
i smiled =)
seriously smile in a nice way...
although 50% is fake one...
but i have to let YOU know and let ME know...
without u..
i'm still happy...
i dont have u,
i still got my boy friends,
i dont have u,
i stll got my girl friends,
i dont have u,
i still got myself...
although...
becoz of u..
i started hating my bro.. :'(

我找到唯一不被剥夺
的小幸福
小小的幸福
我满足了

i dont wanna be greedy...
hug myself...
u never leave me...
coz u never get close to me...

still the same lonesome day...
so what?
so what?
so what?
i still got tears,
got smile...
i'm still me...

=)

try not crying tonight~
see whether if it success~

but laz night...
u still appear in my dream...
it's still u...
a little strange but still so familiar...
ur smile...
pretty face...
but...
it;s juz a dream...
a imaginary thingy~
wink wink

thanks andy for playing badminton with me..
although beat me for 3 TIMES!!
LOL nvm forgive u
^^
at least i moved...
i found tat i become very slow...
my head very blank...
beoz sick too long... swtz~
this time de test..
i dunno i can make it or not..
but still got time...
anyway,
juz prepare for the worst and jope for the best
=)

SMILE to my dear baby ( all readers)
muacksss

越来越陌生

日子越来越陌生
就像
这不是我的人生
我没有迷路
我很清楚我的去向
只是现在
我走在泥泞小路
没有你的帮忙
我走得跌跌撞撞

你的影子还在
我的心还是痛着
才发现
你的脸越来越陌生
很好不是吗？
本来就该和你保持远远的距离
我拿得起
就放得下

哭过了
就要长大
睁大眼睛
看清楚
现在是怎么一回事

忍不住我的眼泪
那篇作文
是我的伤口
我不想让人看到的懦弱

我很害怕
突然很害怕一个人

有空的话
找我聊天哟
一封简讯
也可以让我很开心

耶！
我想起了我们的大合照！
谢谢我可爱的朋友们
给我了一个美好的回忆
到现在
一想起我们的疯狂
我就忍不住开心了！
我们永远永远要一起疯
一起开心
一起玩！

忙忙碌碌

today is VERY busy o~~~
straight go for leo project after i wake and do some boring things,
go thr till 1 pm and we go to see a PLACE~
LOL
and got a very BIG conflict for me...
damn.. i hate my style...
not `gentleman` arh~ zzz
nevermind...
take all halangan as challenge!
i want to make it perfect and make u all know!
I CAN
booo!!
LOLx

then after that,
go home..
4 oclock already...zzz
then go kch airport to fetch my dear aunty from CANADA!!
WOOTS ~~
Happy to the max~~ XDDD
gave a big hug to my aunty and uncle~
muahahahaha~
then go eat dinner at relative's house~
talk with cousins~
nice!! ^^

and now... i'm sitting in front of the comp...
feel lonely again...
since i lost a real nice friend who owes find me
hahahax...
and i remeber andy's msg...
tat make me feel a little warm but i laugh until xxx when i read it..
thanks andy for chatting with me when i'm really bored...
hahax ;) wink wink~
and make me think of jackson
he so ROMANTIC towards... xxxxx ah hem hem hem!!!!
make me 傻眼！
hahax
and i remember last night~
we have lot's of fun
i fall in love with those guy friends and girl friends~
MUACKS ALL!!!
you all are my everything~
FriendShip~ evr!! woohoo!!

and my hmwk..
i haven touch it...
i din get my hmwk..
no ppl bring for me.. kesian betul...
so i need rush rush 2molo hahahax!
chinese dont need do also since i dont have my book~
=P
ok i admit i'm lazy~ hahax ;P

oh boy...
i din emo..
i din cry...
nice one~
FELICIA~~~ i think i success le! yoohoo~
:') still a little sad but...
hahahax so wad?

and guess what!
laz night my 5 boy friends help me to get rid my
BOYS PHOBIA!!!!
oh yeah~~
finally can talk to boy le!!
thx ya all~
muacks muacks muacks~
laz night my 3 girl friends chase away my emo mood~
and i'm happy till now!! hahahx
muacks & hug muacks & hug muacks & hug
^~^

but still...
it's still a little lonely and sad...
hahax
but at least...
i think i get out already~
haha.....

hope everyday is a nice day
for all of u who read my blog~
Love ya all BABY!!! XD

public blog~

woohoo~
finally wanna put this secret blog as private..
=.=||
WHY?
 coz andy wan view~~~ =3=
hahahax...

today we celebrate hui ju antrice's birthday~
too and high!!!
really crazy!!
well talk more 2molo.. today boh mood...

morning's rehearsal is great too...
shocked tat my friend got such nice sound...
~.~
then we sing k after we learn our performing song...
nice nice~~

then tat's all for today's post...
go mapling!! woohoo!!!

heart broken

heart broken...
i know i shouldn't
becoz i shouldn't heart broken becoz of you...
i will do anything juz to let u happy,
i'm willing to get any hurt to see u smile happily,
i wouldn't not like to see u emo again if this is a right choice~
i'll go if this is a right choice...
but we'll never know whether this is a right choice or not...
juz give it a try,
no pain no gain...
rite?
i wont cry this time...
becoz u involve
i know i must bless u..
although it really really hurts...
ahahahax
i'll grow...
i definitely will...
and i'll really forget wat is love this time...
after today...
today is the laz day i miss you...
in fact...
my heart will die tomorrow...
=)
thanks for giving me a fake hope...
and a real cool experience...
at elast i know i'm brave enough...
juz life isn't so perfect...
we must fall before we get stronger...
i know i must leave if u get what u wanted...


i want find a new friend and start building a new friendship
i get addicted in this...
friendship....


i know u always treat me like a sister...
a *cute* childish baby....
well, maybe this is the best way...
and we'll be friends forever....
i know we really couldn't be bf
u dun even trust me....
oh well....
friends....
i understand...
once a side dont wanna give her heart,
this relationship is consider as a failure...
i've been facing this problem...
and it did breaks my heart...
i know my heart is wounded seriously..
who cares? LOL

these days... my besties are like emo-ing...
only that wifey is so happy... =.= kinda envy?
i know u dont love me...
i know i *maybe* dont love u too...
but who cares now?
let it be, let it be, let it be?

我以为，
这一次的勇敢，
可以带我走向幸福的道路
谁知
我只不过是搭上了一辆出了轨的列车
终于下定决心
我选择离开
我选择寂寞
因为
这份幸福
真的真的不属于我
而你也做了选择
选择和她
普下幸福的和弦
我愿意当MV里
那个心碎又不能说的钢琴手

请给我散场的拥抱
然后
我会为微微笑
看着你努力
追求你们的幸福
这次不是我
也不是我们

你教会了我好多
好多我从来都不知到的事情
你给我的安全感
却让我现在更感到恐慌
我先放弃
是因为我怕留在原地的会是我
结果到最后
留在原地的依然是我

或许以后分担着你们的事情
会是我们最开心的话题

i still remember what u say...
长大是美好的
so i dont wan to cry tonight...
although.....
my eyes are watery...

i'll find a nw friend to replace you...
but sorry....
i'm not going to let anyone touch my heart again...
not until the suitable age...
:')

3rd day at home...

and i'm still sick....
S-I-C-K :'(
laz night i omost cry
i hate myself nia...
make ppl worry only :'(
cause trouble for people only...
i wan cry liao :'(

i wan ppl sayang me
LOL!!!

S-i-c-k =)

u touch my heart when u hold my cold hands and give me warmth,
u touch my heart when u straight away carry my beg and take my belongings and ask me go home
u touch my heart when u try to make me relax by singing to me
u touch my heart when u help to support me
my sweeties touched my heart....
thanks you all....
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥


I didnt blame God for making me sick and suffer,
i know you wanna bring me a special present :')
i received it and i really appreciate it,
Thanks Amen

God is like my father,
God love me whole heartedly,
God brought back my sweet memories,
God brought me warmth from friends,
God heard my prayers and decided to make me forget bout love.

and today,
i suffer from asthma at school...
grandma brought me home again...
it's really difficult for me to walk properly,
i felt so uneasy
gasping for oxygen...
i fely my world is turning and dunno will i faint at my very next step...
the 1st thing i reach grandma house is lie down on the sofa...
gasping for air again...
and hopefully i become better,
i try to sit up but
i cannot breath properly..
so i lie down again...

grandma gave me a bowl of porridge to eat,
tat bowl of porridge touch my heart
and i recalled my kindergarten memories tat had been forgotten,
tears in my eyes,
it's still the same taste,
the porridge cook by grandma,
which i ate everyday before grandpa drive us to q-dees,
it's my favourite,
porridge with soy sauce....
it's the taste that i eat every morning,
it's more like a habit.
i love grandma and grandpa,
they are who take care of me when i'm small...
when i lie on the sofa,
i remember how grandpa coax me to sleep,
and tat familiar surronding...
i was like going back to past,
and this is a very precious present that God gave me...
THANKS!!!

felicia told me tat i got 3rd for the english writing competition,
and i told my mum and say maybe is juz inside the class i get third,
who noes i got 3rd for the competition!
SHOCKED to the max,
i never get position for this kind of competition,
wow~
shcok... nice XD

laz night,
a friend said : u got so many nice friends hor...
i reply : ya i love them all! but last time, i ever dont have a single friend becoz of my f***inga**hole attitude...
well,
thanks for being my friends
thanks for bring hope and joy into my life,
i love u all forever and appreciate u all!!
T^T
touched!!!

and i still cnt remeber what is love...
i tried my best to get back tat feeling... but hahahx
failed~
and i think,
forget this maybe is good,
so i can enjoy friendship friendship!! XD

hope i can go to school tomorrow... ^^
i missed my friends~
did u guys miss me?
hahax

i juz feel like
i wanna
S-M-I-L-E again...
(P.S. i forgot how to emo too XD )
cheers~

画下无名故事的句号。

这是一个无名的故事
是那么的平凡
里头有
轰轰烈烈疯狂的单恋
失去温度的泪水
太多说不出的话
一度渴望得到的宠爱

这个故事
就像一个满是缺口的圆圈
我曾以为你就是填补那些空缺的空间
而我达上你那出了轨的列车
我用寂寞惩罚我的午夜
请让我走出对你的狂恋
不再延续我对你的思念

（改编自陈绮贞的《狂恋》）

病了
好久没这么难受过
好的是
头脑病坏了
突然忘记什么叫
爱情...

觉得怪怪的
好像什么东西不见了
却觉得好轻松的说~
哈哈哈
我知道我脑袋很夸张

突然想通了
我决定讲现在开始的每一个
不该拥有的东西
全都错过
（我脑袋真的烧坏了吧？）

哈哈哈
我不贪心
^^
有音乐就够了 ;)
有宝贝朋友就够了 hahahax

really sick dao....
没救了！
XD

我也只是个平凡人~

我没有炫人的彩衣裳
也没有俊俏的脸蛋
没有别人都有的双眼皮
只有平平凡凡的一张脸
所以又怎样？
我也只是个平凡人~

我没有什么特殊的才艺，
成绩比上不足比下有余，
是钢琴班里的吊车尾
只会画写乱七八糟的东西
只是略会卖弄文笔

所以又怎样？

我也只是个平凡人~

我也抵不过种种诱惑

我常常尝到失败的滋味

我也向往小说里完美的邂逅

少女情窦初开的梦我也做过

然而白日梦里的那个王子似乎不曾出现过

所以又怎样？

我也只是个平凡人~

直到遇见了你以后，

我开始觉得我有一点点的不平凡

尽管只是那么的一点点。

情歌开始越唱越有感觉

可是

那只是我觉得而已

仅此而已

所以又怎样？

我也只是个平凡人~

是第一次

鼓起勇气

想要付出

明明知道是错的人

却还是执迷不悟

我依稀看见

我们没有未来

我骗自己说船到桥头自然直

嘴巴说：‘我没期望很高’

心里却已在淌血

明明知道

这次一定会受伤

为什么？！

为什么我还是傻傻愿意相信你一次又一次说的谎？

我很清楚

我受伤了

却还是想要等待

宁可受伤也不要错过

因为我也只是个平凡人~

不是吗？

我愚，我痴，我还小

正处于懵懵懂懂的阶段

爱却悄悄萌芽了

想想，

不要用心

是不是就不会受伤

想说，

不要付出真心

是不是就不会痛到麻木

我也只是个平凡人~

或许我真的很不想错过

可是我还是得放手

虽然我只是个平凡人

你玩不起

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以上也只不过是用我的角度

为我的朋友诠释她的烦恼

里头参杂着一些

我的心情~

^^

只是今晚
你又留我一个人哭....

Our song ♥

do you have any songs,

tat will make u remember something.

i have it...

lots of~

散场的拥抱-- it reminds me of you...

we're at a split road,

and we decide to go to our own way,

without each other....

Here I am -- still, it reminds me of you...

tat time i tot tat i'll lost you forever,

but we pass thru all those difficulties

爱上你 -- it's you again in my mind but with another guy

tat's the 1st time i cry for a boy...

1st time i need a shoulder so much...

1st time i hate that i love boy,

1st time i feel so glad tat i got you...

and it's my sweetest and the most bitter memories

My love will get you home -- it's YOU in my mind.

u said u're sad tat time...

i introduce this song to you,

u say it suits you,

and i try to step inside your world..

心墙-- yep it's YOU

i wonder why,

no matter how hard i try to get close to you,

epic fail everytime..

LOLz

and know i found that,

i've been addicted in a kind of sad and peaceful song,

i prefer japanese song...

a foreign language that i dont really understand,

and it touch my heart more,

coz i can hear the melody more clearly without knowing the lyrics,

and this is call touchy, peaceful, and nice...

music speaks,

it does!

speak much more louder and clearer than the lyrics,

did u ever discover that?

have u ever close ur eyes and listen to a `song` carefully before?

or u're juz reading the lyrics?

tat's the reason i fall for music,

when world falls,

only music speaks.

if there's no words,

music speaks

when there's nothing left,

music speaks....

why i suddenly think of songs?

hahax tat's becoz i'm kinda addicted with taylor swift's OUR SONG~

really nice song~

it's been a long time ago when i never know bout 

girls and boys...

and i regret to know it...

if i dont know bout love...

i wont suffer...

maybe we're all be buddies...

good buddies~

but what to do?

since i met *these* already...

maybe juz follow what lion james told me...

express out if u love someone,

dont scare to fall,

get experience~

and this is call life,

enjoy much much ^^

anata, suki desu

demo...

it's really time for us to let go each other =]

你知道吗？

你知道吗？

想念你，

可以让我莫名其妙地掉泪。

你知道吗？

我可以鼓起勇气为你做任何事情

你知道吗？

等你的一封简讯

可以让我多煎熬。

你知道吗？

你的潇洒可以多吸引我。

你知道吗？

我有多想进入

你简单的世界....

你都不知道

对吗？

你知道吗？

是你教会我，

简单就好

不要去计较

快乐就好

不要害怕

要勇敢。

是你让我知道

男生和女生不一样

有些事情

男生永远都不会明白

有些事情

男生永远做不到

女生想的

和男生不一样。

(以上，又是Nana的无聊灵感，别对号如座哦~）

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是你，

让我一直一直地在做选择

你不知道

对吧？

你不会明白我的顾虑

对吧？

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我想

或许不断不断地做选择

会让我更快长大

就算我的计划里没有要长大的这个环节

我会为了你把它加上去

我愿意相信你说的

“长大是美好的”

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附加一段无聊的对白：

我说 ： 手很酸啊！

你说 ：做么，挤到柠檬哈？

我说 ： 打针啦~ =.=

^.^

生活中偶尔有这些冷冷的笑话

或许我会活得更轻松

谢谢你带给我的美好

宝贝（至我所有的朋友）

我爱你！！

=]

真的...

真的...
我现在只想哭...

你失约了
你没有微笑
又露出那张
让我感到很冷感，很害怕的脸...

怎么啦...
从昨天开始
就对我很冷淡...
让你困扰了吗？
如果不喜欢我这个朋友
你可以说
不要这么冷淡
我会怕
真的会让我很伤心

失败了吗？
是不是交不到你这个朋友了？
:'(

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看到chezzy的部落格
突然想到一个东西
:]
男孩，
如果你不想牵起她的手
请拒绝她
如果你不想亲她
请别接受她的关心
请不要自私地只要她爱你
如果不想给她你的心
就不要接受她的心

男孩常常会让女生觉得他喜欢她
可其实他并不喜欢；
女孩常常让男生觉得她并没有动心
可其实她早就喜欢上了。
那你呢？ =）

（以上不针对任何人，请勿对号入座。以上纯粹是Nana无聊的灵感~ ^^)


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today we got INJECTION!!!
and i'm high till...
i'm smiling and laughing when people is scared...
woots~ i pro~
i rather get injected for 10 times i oso dun wan talk with boys! ^^


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(a week ago)
i said : i gave someone my heart but he throw it away
u replied : WHO! he dont want i WANT
i said : YOU! u threw my heart away
u replied : xxx (i forget wat u reply)

u said u want it... u did say u want it....

(few days ago)
i said : what is tat important thing tat i'm going to receive?
u replied : your heart?
i said :  i got it back already lah~
u replied : give me!
i said : give u already~
u replied : u really gave me ur heart?
( i sank to the bottom of the sea... disappointed)

well,
i can feel tat my body have a hole already....
it's empty
my heart is missing...
u took it,
and now...
u're selfish until u dont wan give me ur heart....
:'(
i know...
i have to wait...
i know friends need trusting...
and maybe u still dont trust me...
well, i'll wait...
wait till accept my freidnship~
:')

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i fall in love with jogging....
WHY?!
keep slim? ... too eng?
nope~
coz i wan make myself exhausted
then i wont think too much...
talking crap with angeline definitely is one of my hobby...
unfortunately...
when i go out from the gate,
i saw FABIAN!!!
LOL...
so worry and nervous...
i act like i din saw him...
and he talk to me...
i simply simply reply...
AND THEN!!!
my saviour came!!!
Angeline is thr already~~
i quickly run to her~~
phew~~ tat was close =.=v

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flawless guy~~~
flawless you~~~
i want to be flawless to!!
Can I?

please give me ur sweetest smile~
coz i need it...
=']

flawless

word to describe tat pretty guy,

flawless.

word to describe the `ballet dancer`

flawless

word to describe how i walk back to class,

flawless

word to describe YOU

flawless

word to describe chezzy's hug,

flawless

word to describe my broken heart,

flawless

word to describe wifey's comfort

flawless

word to decribe Beib's joke,

flawless

word to describe Hanie,

flawless

word to describe me

flawless

word to describe today

flawless

everything seems to be flawless today~

include ur not brave

include my heartbroken

how can i throw tat flawless thingy away?

TELL ME HOW?

give u my heart, u push it away....

give her my heart, she say no thank

give to him, he throw it away~

LOL

baby ( dunno calling who again =.= let me crazy )

I LOVE YOU! ( everyone )

GUY U ARE FLAWLESS!!!

GIRL U ARE FLAWLESS!!!

maucks~~

[P.s. i can be very very brave and dare for you! Why u cant? :'( ]

Hahahax~

suddenly, my optimistic mode on again~
but my heart broken a little little bit...
seems like u doesn't trust me
argh~~~~
feel bad...
nevermind...
slowly,
slowly i'll success!!

greedy

come on!
dont be greedy~
dont grab things or people too fast,
haven u learnt ur lesson?

this feeling.. i cant say it out...
it's juz so confusing...
come on....
cant it be clear?
can anyone tell me how?
and i left myself at the cold and silent corner...
heartbleeding...
no one break it...
i break it myself...

what i want is juz simple...
caring and loving....
dont u noe?
:'(
i never need u to be prefect,
be good looking,
be humour,
be cool,
be cute,
or be anything...
 ijuz need ur caring and loving,
no matter boys or girls...
and i cherrish every of ur caring and loving...

PLEASE GOD,
i PRAY HARDLY,
what i want is juz a simply life,
an ordinary and simple one
can i be juz like YOU!
the one who smile everyday,
who is happy everyday,
who is never bothered by EMO,
i want to be another U!
i wan!!!!
can u teach me how?
:')
maybe u will,
it all depends,
depend on how is our future are written
and YOU,
you are the best gift ever from God,
God make us meet together,
God want me to be a simple person like you~
and u attract me.
and we became friends...
hope that we can be soul friends in future...
if i ever tell u my story,
can i know ur story too?
or u're juz simple with no story?
:')
impossible rite?
everyone have their own story,
u say u were once an egg,
hatched by ur mum.
hahahax~
and u have chicken cell...
and u say u learn to talk human language.
i asked, : i tot chicken speak like kok kok kei kok kok kei,
u said : is ji ji ji
i said : tat is chick lar!!
(hahahahaha)
i smiled =)
i DO I DID i REALLY SMILE!!!
when juz a lame conversation....
God just want u to make me happy, rite?

tat convo make me think of u too...
about the external and internal fertilisation....
u say there are eggs inside ur stomach,
and i say fried those eggs to eat...
=)

my life is mixed by past and now....
so complicated...
i want to be SIMPLE!!!
a sweet smile on my face...
hahahx~
dream dream dream~
maybe my dream will come true some day~~
=)